kay, so i have to be doing my wu ling mi ji for oltc AND type the zillion pages of my script, but those things can wait til i post this post.



HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY SWEETHEART, ATY!
HAHAHA. surprise? of course your da jie never forgets her beloveds' birthdays. LOL. hahaha. may you stay happy and healthy all the time and must not let any bad things affect you, alrighty? i love you lah (: and yes, i just have to choose this picture cos it kinda looks unglam. HAHAHAHA. ahhh i miss the visli days! xD thanks for always being there when i need someone to gossip and share my problems with. LOL. :D take care and enjoy your special day! with much love. (:

ooh yeah i suddenly remembered about my visli visualisation piece, which is somehow related to ky's msn nick. lol. kangyan, must stay strong, kay? you can do it one. :D:D:D



above was my final, visli piece. and although i didn't score an A, i am proud of it cos i really put in a LOT of effort while doing it. i posted this before somewhere in my blog lols but yeah. this drawing was drawn based on the korean song 'Holding Back the Tears' (Vacation Ost.) sung by DBSK. i'll post the translation at the end of the post (:

kay so now that i'm done, time to get back to work. :D

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Holding Back the Tears
by DBSK
lyrics credits to aheeyah.com

A picture that gets smeared in white
And my fragrance that seems to have faded away
All get concealed by the glaring cloud

My heart that has no words
Slowly starts to move my feelings
Those times that slipped through
Are in my hands

I'm holding back the tears
I walk trying to lessen the weight of my heart
To a place that is neither close nor far
Where a different me stands
I will not cry

I bring my two hands together again
To a place that will hear it
As I live though these unmemorable times

Though it seems stupid, we’re always together
The pain that I want to let go
Dries the tears that flows through my body

I'm living with my tears
I walk trying to lessen the weight of my heart
To a place that is neither close nor far
Where a different me stands
I will not cry

I'm holding back the tears
I run adding to the weight of my faith
To a place that is neither high nor low
Where a different me stands again
With a small smile I can laugh


i really hope it isn't what i think it is, cos it's what i fear the most all these while even though i never mentioned it. i'd rather not know than knowing. but then again, if it were to be that way, then so be it. i am so sorry i am always not of any help. i am so terribly sorry that i worry too much and never make you feel better. i am so sorry if you feel like you don't need me. i'll leave you alone if that's what you want.

sorry, i am just not feeling really great. am i really a bother to you?