so are we talking about unfairness, or jealousy? please choose your words carefully. now, it's not nice to compare people, is it? so do you find it unfair that i treat some people better than the rest? well the fact that perhaps i did treat some better than the rest shows something, right? it's not about being biased. if you really think you deserve something great from me, then please think twice and reflect. you claim that you treat me very importantly but then again why don't you sit back and think for a while at how you treated me, or perhaps, some of the other people whom you think are your friends? like, you know, consider how their feelings are when you talk?

i think many people know this; i don't hide it when i dislike things. so before you start judging me, before you even start to think that i'm being unfair or biased or whatever crap it is, please reflect on yourselves as why sometimes i don't treat you as nice as some others. may be, think of why i would sometimes get pissed off by you? well in case you have no idea, then let me give you the answer. i despise people who are insensitive and do not know what's called limits. but know what? i am so disappointed that after so long of tolerating, you don't change, and at the end of the day, the blame falls on me. (singlish mode = on) ey, seriously lah. how old already. i not your babysitter la. and if wanna talk about presents, then that shows one thing; you're not seeing me as a friend, you're seeing me as a person who gives presents. what am i, santa claus? seriously la, grow up. i have had enough. (off).

if i'm in the wrong, i apologise. but as far as i'm concerned, i'm really tired of trying. i'm tired of tolerating and caring; so maybe i'll stop playing the nice role for a while. i hope your family matter can be settled soon. for now, let's just not talk and cool things off. and just so you know, i do treat you as my best friend.

please note that the pharagraphs in italic is not referring to any of my female acquitances or friends. i happen to be referring to some people whose gender are males. thanks.