first of all, Happy Birthday to me! finally, 18 years olddd =D haha yay. i feel so old matured now. HAHAHA. finally, can buy heineken on my own! can watch m18! learn to be on my own le. loool.

well those who knew that i went to Semi Final for Kpop Talent Contest, here's the sad news. steph & i didn't make it to the Finals. ): yeah we're sad, but at the same time, i feel quite relieved in a way. i have to admit i was feeling quite scared haha. but i feel sad too cuz we didnt make it. however, i think it's a very good experience. and steph, cheer up, okay? i know i didnt do well too, and yeah i have to say i'm glad i participated with you. if it weren't for your 'push' i wouldnt even thought of joining and i wouldnt be able to experience such a great thing. so please cheer up and lets do better next time. :) love ya. RD JJANG! RD FIGHTING! ^^

and to other contestants who didn't make it to Finals, please don't be sad. i think all of us did well! and for those who are in FInals, gambatteh!!! =D

well today's entry is gonna be long. i'm gonna post some dedications to people who i feel really deeply for, but first of all allow me to thank the following people (list will be edited)

1) papa! :D
2) harris
3) nyanya
4) xiaotong
5) glenn
6) pinjia
7) iye
8) utz
9) jianhui
10) bobo
11) stephanie lim (kim babo)
12) sam
13) rachel
14) julie
15) joanna
16) aty
17) shio
18) steph (nhee;nhee@sjfh)
19) junxuan
20) kabao
21) annisa
22) sis
23) yaoteck
24) zul
25) kelvin
26) adib
27) andrew
28) jamie
29) ika
30) mama! :D
31) amanda lye
32) yeni & family :)
33) jingle
34) benedict
35) zaaa
36) tene
37) tiffany (x__crayolaaxlove@sjfh)
38) tuyen (yeahbbyits tuyen@sjfh)
39) nae (fridaynae@sjfh)
40) joanne
41) ato
42) yasmin
43) amanda yee
44) timothy nga :D
45) kiat :D
46) dana
47) lil_aqua_chic@sjfh
48) zakiy
49) luqman
50) danny
51) chuan yew
52) krisna
53) benjamin chia
54) ivana :D:D
55) tiffany aka ani
56) kok peng
57) chun chee :)
58) amalina
59) rene
60) chun sian
61) sha (han_kyung@sjfh)
62) nikka (nikkavril@sjfh)
63) venus
64) adrian
65) odelia
66) meiyen
67) paula
68) vivian
69) stanley
70) gerald (J)
71) liyanah
72) utz's mom
73) wan (XiaoChaOsXD@sjfh)
74) lynn (Teddy_ @sjfh)
75) gabby@sjfh
76) lysa (katalysamare@sjfh)
77) toh lin
78) ke xian
79) jia bao
80) priska
81) jolene
82) JaePi@sjfh
83) Maike@sjfh
84) aini (aini_peace@sjfh)
85) yvonne aka. mrs bang :)
86) zul (aty's babyboo)
87) rashid
88) rachman
89) shiv
90) uncle beng :D
91) jillian~
92) roz!! :D
93) englha @ fs
94) samson
95) hanping
96) derrick
97) gabby
98) valerie
99) larissa
100) jamie (ANIC)
101) ming (*_mingyy@sjfh)
102) shelley (Shi Eun @ sjfh)
103) alex
104) lyn (ilovesungmin@sjfh) :D
105) nad_donad@sjfh
106) cliff
107) madelyn

so this year, it's finally not utz who wish me the first. HAHAHA. the list above is according to who wish me first, actually. thanks to all of you, i really love everyone of you! :D

now, the dedications.

first of all, to my papa & mama. thank you so much for always being there to guide me, for caring and looking after me. i know i don't spend much time with the both of you because we're at different countries, but please know that i always love you both from the bottom of my heart. i am so sorry if at times i trouble you too much or even disappointing you, i will do my best to be a daughter you can be proud of. i still remember my promise to you, mom, and to you too, dad, and i'll do everything i can to fulfill my promises. thank you, i love you both. take care. :)

to sis, i know at times we always quarrel and you probably think having a younger sister is such a bad thing, but yeah i do feel grateful that i'm not alone in this country. i want you to know that i don't like seeing you sad, and i don't like seeing you starve yourself when you try saving money for your phone bills (lol) so please take care of yourself. love you, take care. :)

to Aiden Lee Dong Hae-ssi, even though i am extremely sure the chances of you reading this is like 0.01%, i want to dedicate this to you. first of all, i am sorry i didn't make a birthday post for you on 25 October. i was really busy i totally forgot about it. T_T so happy belated birthday! and i want to thank you for always giving your best to make all your fans happy. and most importantly, you really changed my life in the past. believe it or not, you saved me from depression. HAHA. people would probably think i'm just a stupid fanatic fangirl but i am not. i love you because you're my life savior even though you don't even know i exist. stay strong & i'll always support you from afar! fishy jiayou! hwaiting! :D

to nyanya & iye, you both are the most wonderful buddies i have ever had. i really enjoy our time together and even though you both are as crazy and random as me those mental people, i still love you! thank you for the present, i'm so gonna love you girls for life! hahaha. buddies forever and meet up when i go back indo, okay? or maybe you two should come to Singapore. HAHAHA! love you both! take care~ :D

to utz, i know we havent been friends for like 10 years but you're like my other half. stay happy and strong, alright? i really am grateful to have you as my best friend and we'll remain best friend no matter where we are, no matter what happens. i want to thank you for being there whenever i have problems, and also to share my happiness whenever i am way too happy. take care and all the best with your studies! love you & take care! :D

to paula, my buddy who now lives at the other side of the world. i really miss you, and it's been like forever since we last met! i hope you're doing good and i do hope i'll see you soon. take care and hang tough, okay? love you, miss you!

to leonita, even though we're both in Singapore, it feels like we havent met for decades! i know school is stressful for you and i pray so that you'll always be able to pull through it. lets meet up when you're free :D love you!

to steph aka kim babo, my Random Duo partner! i know we didn't make it to the finals, but well as i said earlier on, i am glad i participated with you. it wouldnt be the same if i participate with someone else or by myself. you're like my sister, so don't be sad, okay? jia you for your Os and faster come to TP graduate so we can have more time to practise singing & dancing and spazzing over the kpop stars! :X lol. RD JJANG! :D

to xiaotong aka kim musoon. first of all i am so sorry i didn't make it to Apparel Design with you LOL but yeah i am sort of glad i didn't make it :X anyway i want you to know that i feel really thankful for all your advices, opinion, and also for always lending your ears to me. i know i talk alot, sorry. :X it's always fun with you around & i hope we can meet up more often. hahaha. take care and love you! :D

to alvin aka dabao, it's been ages since we last talked. i have to admit i miss talking to you, because even though i was furious at you, i really do treat you as my important friend. i hope you stay happy and healthy all the time & hope things are going smoothly for you and your girl. take care and catch up with you soon! :) love you, kor.

to andrew, don't stress / emo, okay? haha. must stay happy, if not you don't seem like andrew. see you in audi! lol.

to venus, i know it's been like forever since we last meet up. and our schools are like so near each other! ohemgee. well let's meet up soon! i really am happy to have known you :D haha take care and God bless. psst, i think Uruha is hot. HAHAHA :D

to kelvin my senior aka daddy, i know i havent contacted you for the longest time. well the fact that your name is here means you're still as important to me. so better meet up soon, ok? may you last forever with your girl. miss you! :D

to eugene ong. i know you probably won't be able to see this message but i gotta say you changed my life in a way or two so i really hope you'll stay happy and healthy. :D take care & God bless!

to all my 4e3 friends, i wanted to list down one by one but that's abit impossible since there are so many of you. anyway, i just wanna let you all know that i miss you all like DAMN A LOT. meet up soon, ok? 4e3 ROCKS! :D

to chunchee my pet :D well i know you're like a month younger than me but i always felt like you're an older brother. i'm sorry for always whining & complaining to you whenever i feel upset about things. thank you for always understanding & being patient with me. may you and yiwen last forever (please get married) LOL. pet-owner forever and stay happy! :D

to kokpeng, someone who always bully me & whom i always bully. :D it's always great talking to you since our minds are of the same level. as people said, great minds think alike. lol. well take care and may you get together with that special someone. take care, lil bro! :D

to gerald aka j aka hairy monster. i know i don't seem like it but i really look up to you as my so called older brother. thanks for always making me laugh whenever i get pissed off when i quarrel with my sis. you're a great friend and let's go out for a drink some day since i'm already legal now. HAHAHAHA :D

to jianhui, my didi. i'm so sorry for ignoring you the other day. well you know you're important to me, so what else do you want me to say? lol. well may you last long long with your dardar (the human one) and your wifey (the phone). haha take care and stay happy, okay? :)

to aty, my lil sis in school. i'm sorry i haven't been accompanying you lately. also, i'm sorry for 'pangseh'-ing you in dance. i promise i'll try to manage my time and be more active in tpde, okay? well it's great knowing you. you're like so random hahaha but that's what makes me like you, girl. stay cheerful, okay? take a good care of your health & stay strong with your babyboo. love you & take care :)

to hafizah aka ZAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA! well i think you know i'm gonna say you rock, so yeah. LOL. i really like your haircut. HAHAHA. ok, i don't need to say cheesy stuff, right? i bet you know i treasure you a lot as a friend. haha. take care!

to pinjia, thanks for the graphics presents! i really love them and you're really good at Photoshop. must have more confidence in yourself, okay? you're a nice person and a nice friend! i really am glad to have met you. and yes, i do hope we can go out together someday! :D:D:D see ya in school! take care & God bless! :D Thanks for the graphics! (i decided to showcase your presents for me, so here they are!)





to shiv & ziling, you girls have been great company! haha. shame on those who don't know how to treasure friends like you both. :) thanks for always making my day in school! hahaha. i love you both! take care & God bless! ^^

to rachel linn vera braberry aka rara raspberry aka ratata (LOL) well yeah you're a nice friend and you know it. don't always emo, ok? the world isn't as bad and sad as you think it is. thanks for always caring for me and for all the encouragement you gave. you really need to start loving yourself so that you don't always feel sad. remember, i'm always here for you! :) take care & God bless!

to jingle & chunsian, you both are like part of c213 even though you're from c214. well i really enjoyed your company! jingle, let's go malaysia again one day :D and cs, stop bullying people who are shorter than you. LOL. take care!!! :D

to harris, i know we havent been on talking terms but the fact that you remember my birthday was really surprising. lol. i enjoyed having you as a friend, ok? take care and God bless! :D

to my c213 classmates, i really am glad i got in to c213. you're all so fun to be with and my days in poly are great thanks to all of you. let's show the world that c213 is the most zai class ever! HAHAHA. love all of you! ^^

to bobo~ first of all thanks for helping me with my mac lappy, and you're really a great friend & a nice person to talk to. oh and thanks for being in the top ten list of my birthday wisher! LOL. well see ya in school, bobobobobobobo! loool :D

to glenn, my dearest tetrafish. thank you for the blog dedication, that was really sweet of you ^^ meet up soon, okay? haha take care and always stay happy :) love you.

to the rest of my tetrafishes, ika, nadiah, annisa, levin and jeremy. i want you all to know that i had a great time during ANIC and all of you played a part. thank you & i love youuu! :D

to shio, i don't know if you'd ever read this but i hope we can talk again soon. come online pleaseee T_T hahaha. i miss you!

to stephanie (nhee;nhee) you're one of my first friends in sjfullhouse.net and i really think you're a nice person. thank you for the DVD you burnt for me and keep in touch! love yaaa :D

to kabao, tiffany & lysa. NEIGHBOURS FOREVER! haha. AKUTAMATATA ROCKS! i really miss those days where we can just randomly rant in a conference conversation. lol. let's talk again soon! i love all of you :D

to the rest of my forum friends; Tene, Yana, etc etc... i really am happy to know all of you... you're all so FUNNN! :D and thats why i always come back to the forum no matter how long i mia-ed. take care always! :D

to my whitley prefects & sl friends. how are you all doing? i do hope all of you are doing good. lets meet up soon! :D

to my TIKEY mates. well the camp wouldnt be fun if it wasnt for all of you. Tikey Wu Wu Wu Wu RAWR! :D haha and yes, thanks to marcus & surin too. anyway i'll try to settle the t-shirt asap. *drags nelson* LOL :D take cares all!

to zul. well i havent known you for long but yeah i do owe you an apology for judging you last time before i got to know you. you're a nice friend and please stay happy, okay! :D catch up soon!

to leeeeenaaaaa, my spazzing friend! you know you're really crazy but thats what i like about you. HAHAHA. :D

and to my other friends whom i have not mentioned yet. i am so sorry if i didnt make a personal dedication to you, but please know that you're all important and dear to me. please do tag in my taggieboard if you want me to make a personal dedication to you (lol).

take care people! and omg, those dedications took me 1 hour and 20 minutes to type. HAHAHA :D

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HAPPY BIRTHDAY NAE aka FRIDAYNAE @ SJFULLHOUSE.NET! HAHAHA. we have been quite close yet we didnt know we have the same birthday! LOOOL. take care and God bless you always. may you have a wonderful birthday!!! ^^