this mv is rather creepy, but i like the song very much (:

Epik High - Fan
lyrics translation credits to aheeyah.com

Oh! (Even if I can't have you)
Even if it’s only in my mind (Even if I can't touch you)
Even if it’s only a meaningless dream (Even if I can't talk to you)
Even if I hide and watch from far away (You know I do)
I love you (Even if you don't know who I am)

Oh baby don't you know, you don't even know my name
I spend my sleepless nights gazing at you
Oh so beautiful, your solo picture clutched in my hand
The heartbreak of my crazy love buried in the cheers of the world
You’re not even listening, you wouldn’t even know if I died
Even in your next life you will live without knowing who I am
I want you so bad and it’s too late to turn back
Even tonight I want to kiss you so I clutch my pillow tight

Today is our first meeting right?
Only you have this sort of dialogue
Again today I talk to your retreating figure
It’s always the same thing but still I give a nervous hello
Even though the whole world’s stops listening, I only need you to hear me
The further you are the hardened my heart becomes, please listen to me
Farther, and farther, fortune works wherever
Will I be able to see you? (Tell me)

Oh! (Even if I can't have you)
Even if it’s only in my mind (Even if I can't touch you)
Even if it’s only a meaningless dream (Even if I can't talk to you)
Even if I hide and watch from far away (You know I do)
I love you (Even if you don't know who I am)

Darling, why are you not smiling today?
It would be nice if it was not a big problem
I couldn’t look at your face filled with anxiety
It would be better if I was in pain but the impossibility of that brings regret
Hold me, the one who could respond to your question of “how are you?”
Can’t come close, can’t touch, you’re the one I can’t hold
I’m going to go meet you tonight in my dreams
Even if in my dreams everyone ridicules my love
Even though everyone says I am crazy and the entire world disappears
Babe you belong to me, but why are the worthless multitudes talking you away?

No, there is no way.
I’ll make you see only me
I’ll give you everything,
I’ll make your lips meet mine,
I’ll go get the world and give it to you
I’ll make it so you can never leave me,
I’ll keep you in my sunken heart
You are My star, I’m your no.1 fan
Baby please, take my hand

Oh! (Even if I can't have you)
Even if it’s only in my mind (Even if I can't touch you)
Even if it’s only a meaningless dream (Even if I can't talk to you)
Even if I hide and watch from far away (You know I do)
I love you (Even if you don't know who I am)

Boys and Girls in a crazy love say
Boys and Girls in a stupid love say
Boys and Girls in a meaningless love say
Boys and Girls in a love like mine say
Even if you don't know who I am.

sometimes, i dislike holiday because every day seems so boring when i spent it at home. ):

went to school around 2 pm today to meet pinjia. kp, rach, cc and cs also came to accompany us :D we took turns teaching her (sorry kp & cc, since i was playing djmax most of the time :X) and i really hope she can do well for her sup paper. all the best, pinjia! :D

oh, and all the best to zaa too! ^^

i'm finally done reading hana kimi! hahaha. it's a nice manga. i can rate it 9.5 out of 10; and it actually is one of my top 5 manga! lols. i love reading romance manga~ hahaha. people who likes to read comic books should check out hana kimi, flame of recca, harlem beat and my fair lady! haha. i love fruit basket too. (: if i were to reccommend some manga to read, it'll be hard because i have read like... more than 1000 mangas i think. :X yes i know i'm a manga freak. HAHAHA. XD

hmms let's see. i have yet to update my fanfics (KILL ME~ LOL) hahaha. sorry sorry T_T but i WILL update it by end of this week! ):'D

it takes two hands to clap.

i don't understand what's the matter with all of you. isn't she your mother? why can't you all think just like adults do? it's like, it's easy to say, but hard to do. i hate hate hate hate hate you all.