this is my visli piece for visualization. i did it base on the song 'Holding Back the Tears' by DBSK. credits to rachel for taking the pic! :)

okay today's blog is gonna be long and if you're expecting some kind of cheerful giggly entry, i am sorry to disappoint you. so i am supposed to be happy because i am done with exams, and cmsy paper was easy and i think i can score at least 80/100, but that's not the problem. i was tired, really exhausted that all i wanted to do was to go home, bathe, and sleep, but my intuition told me not to go home, and somehow, i was right. zzz.

so before my mood was spoilt, my friends and i (cc, cs, kp, jianhui, jingle and rach) went to the arcade after the paper. we played awhile and after that i took 21 home. okay, here comes the SIAN part.

first, it was raining, so obviously i got drenched. never mind this one. i reached home, and was happily bathing when my sis reached home and asked me to find my passport since we're supposed to be going back to indo on 12-15 sept for our relative's wedding.

so... found the passport. i happily go online, was about to book the ticket and there was this section, 'Enter Passport's Expiry Date: '. so i flipped open my passport and found out that my passport expiry date is 1 September 2008. i was like OH FUCK. i forgot to extend the date since i have been so damn busy with school. i was supposed to extend it since like 2 months ago? really what the fuck can. zzz.

hence, i have to find the necessary documents needed to extend my passport. i need to go to the embassy tomorrow. okay here comes the second part : i canNOT find my indonesian IC. OH FUCK again. i searched through my whole room, finding for the wallet which contain all my indonesian currency notes and other things i need to use in indo. i kept on searching for the whole 1 hour 30 minutes; and within that period of time i asked my sister 5 times; "did you see my indonesian IC?" and her answer was simply "no". here comes the third part. after 100 fucking minutes of searching through almost every single thing in my room, my sister laughed at me and casually informed me that my indonesian IC is in her wallet. WHAT THE FUCK AGAIN. i have never felt so irritated before.

but since i didn't want to start a quarrel, i let it pass. here comes the forth part. my sister took out all the things we need to bring back indo so that we dont have to carry too many things when we moved out next time. so guess what? she asked me to pack everything. take note, ME. not US. WHAT THE HELL.

all i wanted was to get a good rest once i reached home, but instead of getting a good rest, i tire myself even more. worst still, i have to reach the embassy by 8.30 tomorrow morning. and the embassy is 1 hour trip from my house, which means i have to wake up around 6.30? ARGH. sucks to be me.

i don't even know how to describe my feeling now. i am just so pissed, irritated by the fact that i am being so forgetful about a lot of things. but most of the irritation really is caused by my sister.

fuck la. -_-

cyn : you ok?

val : ya.

cyn : you ok?

val : ? ya, why?

cyn : you sure you ok?

val : YES, why?

cyn : suree???

val : yaaaaaa?

cyn : DAMN sure?

val : ....

cyn : eh seriously leh. ok anot?

val : fuck off la.

cyn : ok, you're ok.

lol sorry, cyn. thanks for the concern, but i'm really fine (:

seriously, there is a limit to everything. i may seem to be a nice person, and i can say i AM nice to people whom i treat as friends; and my friends wouldn't ask me if they are my friends because they'd know it through the way i treat them. but sometimes, i feel like i'm losing my patience. and i don't mean to pinpoint anyone, please, i am not referring to anyone in particular. sometimes i just feel tired of being nice. because sometimes, i feel like people are testing my patience.