daren : val, why draw a clown?
me : because a clown never shows anyone that he is hurting inside, but when he takes off his mask, he might break down anytime.

perhaps that's why i salute people who work as clowns. i have always wondered how they could hide their sadness and sorrows. i tried my best but sometimes, it's just hard to pretend.

i'm so sorry for always causing everyone to worry about me. i'm fine and dandy, i'm val after all :D thank you. i love you all (: thanks thanks thanks shiv, cc, kp, j, rach, jingle, aty and jianhui! ^^

finally i am done with my prsp assignment and my visli pieces. and it's time for me to start revising AND get some rest! no more sleepless nights! no more staying back at labs, waiting for the lab attendant to chase us out! muahahaha. *jumps in circles*

isn't it hard, when you like someone and feel like admitting it out loud but you just can't because he likes someone else? hahaha. not that i want to hide or anything, but i just don't think i should say it out. and perhaps, i am not really in to this kind of love-thingy. i'll just let time flies and let the feeling fades little by little. (:

ever feel homesick?
i do.

i really wish i could be more reliable. i wish i could help. i wish i could be there. i wish i could be more sensitive and realise it sooner. i'm so sorry i wasn't sharp enough. i'm so sorry i can't do a thing . but i will do my best here too, so please don't give up just yet.