i used to believe that all dreams can come true. but as time goes by i realised that not all dreams are meant to be real.

i had a dream. in fact, i don't wish to call it a dream; it's something that i want to achieve. i want to go korea, i want to join SM. but i know i'm no kim jaejoong or zhang liyin; my singing & dance skills are of average. but that doesn't mean i'm giving up.

idk why i crave to work for SM, even if i'm not a trainee in there. i'm going to study hard so that i can get a scholarship at Seoul university, and then i'm gonna see if i can work at SM as a crew or something like that.

don't tell me i'm dreaming, because i'm dead serious. i know not everyone can accept the fact that i'm dreaming a TOO-BIG-DREAM, but as i said; this is no dream. this is what i wanna do.

you used to tell me that i can change my own fate; but why are you telling me the opposite thing now?

worked today and my swollen hand became worst. less painful, yes, since it's numb now. -_- had KFC for dinner and i seriously think i better cut down on fast foods. i'm gaining weight @_@

Gosh, what's wrong with you people?