VAAAAL.

2009-06-11T21:16:00.001+08:00

I HAVE MOVED (:

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thanks for visiting thinkalotlikeval! :D

2009-04-21T22:28:00.001+08:00

time is just ticking way too fast.
within a blink of an eye, i have zillions of things to do.
oh wells.

i still love my friends.
& bestie i miss you! :D

say all you want,
after all, talk is free.

2009-04-21T00:07:00.002+08:00

regatta performance :D
totally loves. muahahaha. \m/

& i hope jingle's sis get well soon! :D

it's so weird going to school as a year 2 student. lol. like totally not used to it. :/ currently at ivan's, using james' lappy. meanwhile, james is watching the guys mj-ing. attendance at the moment: nelson, desmond, ivan, rio, james and me. lol.

kay update more later.
:D

2009-04-20T12:46:00.003+08:00

it's sad how some people just refuse to move on and ending up being sour grapes. haha.

supposed to go to school at 10 just now but my body felt like it was in haywire or something. so decided to take panadol and sleep again. just woke up 10 minutes ago - not exactly feeling well but at least better x) i better get ready to go school soon.

why am i not excited being a junior? :/

okay, gotta go now.
school feels weird without him around. it was obvious that both of us feel the loss.
ciaos!

2009-04-19T12:56:00.004+08:00

okay so now, i shall post a proper after-camp-thank-you post as usual (: week 0 was a success for me - no matter what others say - cos i really am happy with my lt's performance, as well as my regatta's performance group's performance. LOL.

firstly, i wanna thank all the dancers and stompers. thank you for giving your all!
aty, thank you for agreeing to help, for choreographing, and for finding time to practise despite having to work and tpde commitment. really, i can't thank you enough! you were really a great help. thank you!
rio, thank you for volunteering to help out as well. without you, i don't think the performance will be as great. you played a big role - especially for stomp. thanks alot. (:
diana!!! you know, i can never thank you enough. you're always helping out - be it oltc or week 0. thanks so much for everything! it's great to know you. :D and i hope even after you graduate, we can still hang out and you'll still come back to school. hahaha. loves!!!
qiyang and jerven! thanks for coming down and agreeing to help willingly! you know you guys really rocks to the core. all the best for tpde audition, yea? hope we can dance together again someday :D
zara, kexian, surin, jonathan, shamayne! thanks for agreeing to help! you know it was really hard for me to find people to perform. despite feeling nervous and shy, you all still give it your all. and i can never express how grateful i am to every single one of you. thanks for being cooperative all the while!! :D
atiqah, thanks for choreographing and doing your best even though you were away at hainan. but you know the performance can't succeed without you. (:
lastly, to the freshies. even though we just met and knew each other for few hours, you guys & girls still gave your all. i feel very touched! hahaha. thanks alot for the hard work. see you around in school, kay? LOVES! :D i feel you all!

and yeah. personal thanks! :D

thank you james for lending me listening ears ever since oltc!
thank you ivan for breakfast LOL
thank you coburn for being understanding all the time!
thank you kangyan for the support you gave since oltc till now!
thank you farhanah for letting me rant and giving me advices! :D
thank you da bao for letting me cry my heart out during the camp. sorry for making you worry! haha but i'm okay now. (:
thank you chinsoon for taking care of the lt whenever i'm not around! you're a great partner! :)
thank you dip it for being an awesome bunch of people. c218, c219, c220, you guys are a MAZE ing. LOL. i mean amazing yeah. :D
thank you OLs for giving your all! you guys are cool! :D

i love psquad :D
i love admin :D
i love lt9's freshies & OLs & lt head :D
i love pflogic :D

okay, off topic. i got freehand as my CDS this semester. hahaha cool! xD

i better get ready for sentosa now. ciaos! :D

If your sky is grey, oh let me know
There's a place in heaven where we'll go
If heaven is a million years away
Oh, just call me and I'll make your day
When the night are getting cold and blue
When the days are getting hard for you
I will always stay here by your side
I promise you I'll never hide

i love iitsc. :)

there's nothing to be sad about;
i might have lost someone dear, but i found a great friend instead.
it's all good.

2009-04-18T05:41:00.004+08:00

thank you for everything. for giving me the chance to grow up and change for the better. for showing me the other sides i've never seen before in my life. for staying by my side when i'm at my lowest, for caring and helping me whenever i need a helping hand or listening ear. i'm glad i met you.

really, thank you.

and i'm sorry if i've ever disappointed you.
really.

i love my freshies. (: they are the nicest bunch i've ever met so far (considering i haven't been a junior? LOL) dip it loves. (: i feel you all!

\m/

2009-04-16T09:29:00.002+08:00

i'm currently in camp but that doesn't mean i can't blog. lols.

i really am grateful to farhanah, jingle and zara. thanks alot for your words during the camp. you know, they really mean alot to me. and thanks to shar too! your sms made my day man. lols. (:

sometimes, i just need to let it out.
i never meant to compare my 'misery' or 'pain' with others.

2009-04-14T01:05:00.001+08:00

ku katakan dengan indah - peter pan . mp3.

2009-04-13T00:01:00.002+08:00

i just can't describe how grateful i am to everyone. especially a giraffe who suffers from ulcer and diana. (: thanks alot! jiayou performersss! xD IT will win the war!

i'm doing my best to fight this stupid runny nose and fever. i shall win them. hahaha (omg random but yeah i'm actually thinking of udang man LOL)

okay i'm gonna go sleep now (:
nights people!

misery loves its company.

2009-04-12T04:43:00.002+08:00

& everytime i try, i get tongue tied.

wooo! i totally hate fever to the core. =.= my morning was so bad since i woke up with a heavy head due to fever. anyway my sister gave me some fever meds which i cant remember what since i was feeling so giddy and yeah i fell back asleep. woke up in the afternoon and motivated myself to go to school. lol. practice was okay today! finally we managed to settle some parts which we have been thinking about for so long. (:

alrighty, now i'm at ivan's place, trying to not think about my runny nose and not-so-fine headache. woots. attendance: rio, diana, qiyang, ivan, sky, desmond, nelson. HAHA! some of them are mj-ing though. lols.

ahhhh i miss my bestie!
& i'm homesickkkk )):

2009-04-11T02:25:00.002+08:00

wooo! i'm blogging from my new house. (:

i still prefer my old house compared to this one, but of course this ain't so bad either. hahaha (:

reached home like not very long ago. i've been eating mac for a few days already and am gaining weight! lols. x)

i'm sure we can all put up good performance for week 0. jiayou jiayou, everyone! :D thanks for helping out, people! :D

kay this is just a short entry cos i seriously need to get some sleep.

nights, everyone!
i'm so glad i found you.

2009-04-10T20:02:00.002+08:00

i need my sleep.

(( o(*_*"')o ))

2009-04-08T23:23:00.001+08:00

A VERY SHORT UPDATE BECAUSE I AM BORED. LOL.

Oasis - Wonderwall.mp3.
& no matter how far i go, a part of me will always be with you.
(:

2009-04-07T11:35:00.001+08:00

i just think that they're awesome. (:

2009-04-06T19:20:00.006+08:00

camwhoring session at clubroom while slacking with diana!

i really hope people can buck up a little and give their best shot for week 0. i promise i'll do my best too, but we need to support each other! add oil, everyone. (:

finally i managed to finish writing the letter & i asked my sister to send it for me already. now, to wait again. :/

edited;

thanks ivan for the dinner, for the mushroom drawing (i'm gonna paint your mole red one day!) and for driving me home. (:

oh sorry to ivan & shar & ts. i'm realllyyyyy alright! just needed to like explode abit cos if not i'll die swallowing my irritation. LOL. thanks for tolerating btw. xD

2009-04-04T18:20:00.007+08:00

HELLO THINKALOTLIKEVAL.

bestie called just now to ask if everything's alright; she was worried cos i closed down my blog. so now, i'm gonna update my blog so she can stop worrying (: but i wont be updating so frequently compared to last time, cos i have quite a number of things i need to settle.

bestie, don't worry, kay? everything is fine, i'm fine, i'm doing good! :D thank you for the call, it helps alot (psychologically) LOL.

another reason why i'm updating is because i just read shar's blog! HAHAHA. i'm glad you feel better already. it's great to know that you're starting to thinkalotlikeval. LOL. i may not help much but you can always talk to me if you need someone to talk to! :D

oh here's something:

shar :] says:
*who cant become a memory? hahaaa!
val ♠ jealousy turns you ugly. says:
*oh it's part of a song lol
*guess what
*i'm updating my blog
*lol
shar :] says:
*wattt!
*YESSSSSSSSSSSSSSS! wohooo
*i just updated mine yest
*u should like go read plz!
val ♠ jealousy turns you ugly. says:
*haha yeah i saw!
*i tagged already (:
shar :] says:
*haha okay i just saw it!
*haha
*so so so i inspired u to update right right
*HAHA
*:P:P
val ♠ jealousy turns you ugly. says:
*haha partly, but another part is bcos my bestfriend called from US to ask me what happened to me
*she was worried cos i closed my blog =x
*so i'm updating
*lol
shar :] says:
*aww! seee she still love u despite the distance!
*but but u must put in ur blog SHAR was partially the reason i updated
*okayokay!
*HAHAHAHA!!!
val ♠ jealousy turns you ugly. says:
*HAHAHAHA okok

LOL.

kay so here's a little update. April's fool was not a very good day for me and a good friend of mine. but anyway things are settled already. haha. hontou gomenasai. ): loves. anyway, managed to trick some people, and got tricked quite a few times too. haha. so there goes April's fool. oh and i managed to get some people to come down and help with the performance thingy! thanks for coming down :D

they say, when quarrels or unhappiness happen in friendship, the friendship either becomes stronger or ends. i think, ours become stronger! HAHAHA. :X

2nd april, had another dance practice with the performers. atiqah taught some choreographs and woots, i can't describe how good i feel after not dancing for sooo long! thanks rio for agreeing to help along with the performance although you have like zillions of things to do! diana too (: and not forgetting my other dancers; qiyang, jerven, zul, zara, mumu & kangyaaaaaan! :D many many thanks.

anyway after practice, dined at fish&co express @ downtown east with diana and rio. after that we went to the hk cafe at white sands and talked till the shop closes (like around 1+ am?) then diana drove us to another place, and again we sat and talked for awhile! i reached home around 4+ am. lol. it feels good talking to the both of them! thanks for driving me home, diana! loves (:

3rd april, another dance practice! and the clubroom door slammed on me before the practice started. lol. T.T" practice went okay, although less people compared to the day before. atiqah taught some new steps so yeah. after practice, slacked at clubroom awhile. rio ended up falling asleep until 8pm++, so we waited for the dragon boaters to come back then we went for dinner at ak. mich and des were practically half dead since they're so tired from FO. rest well, you 2! :)

rio & sky wanted to dota but the lab couldnt be opened so in the end the 3 of us went back to clubroom to slack again. lol. watched whose line is it anyway and it was damn funny can. hahaha. change! okay it was fun. :X left clubroom around 11.30pm. then homesweethome.

as for today, my activity is to PACK my house since i'm moving house! haha. at least i feel much better after i'm done with my script. (:

& ivy ho is coming back tomorrow. (:
& get well soon, TS!!!!

i'm still having muscle aches from dragon boat rowing training, basketball & dance practices. T.T" OH but is anyone keen to accompany me go jogging? i think i need to exercise. LOL. :X

i'm not gonna let anyone affect my trust in you. (:

kay so i hope this update is long enough??? lol. i'll update again someday. no promise though. :X

2009-04-01T13:41:00.003+08:00

supp paper result is out! and i pass oopg (: kinda happy cos i really dont wish to retake that subject. but to my friends who failed, please dont be sad kay. let me know if you need help. jiayou jiayou (:

current GPA: 3.13
i'm gonna study hard and pull up my GPA next semester.

guess what? i'm gonna abandon this blog. at least till i find myself back. (:

i'm gonna clear the mess i created.
i'm gonna focus on the goals i have forgotten for awhile.
hahaha.
i love all my friends.
(:

BYEBYE THINKALOTLIKEVAL.
see you (hopefully) soon.

2009-04-01T01:21:00.004+08:00

i don't need more things to add on to my headaches.
if you hate me so much, then just don't come near me lah.
like stay out of my way, can? -.-"
why make life so difficult for both of us?
zzz. get a life.

so i know i am not the most pleasant girl you can find
but you know, i did try to be nice
i never really wanted to hate anyone
i never really wanted to make life so difficult for many
i really, really never meant to
i don't know what did i do to offend you
but i do know i never mean to make you feel that way.

just because i don't know how to express words,
doesn't mean i never feel anything.

lately it's hard to even speak
cos i no longer know what i can say and can not say.

you disappoint me.

2009-03-31T21:03:00.004+08:00

it has come to the point that, i don't really know what i should believe and what i shouldn't believe. i don't know whether to trust you, or not.

anyway, i think today was an okay day. sure i am feeling tired from dragon boat rowing session and basketball, but it feels good to finally exercise. haha.

i lost my socks during dragon boat! LOL. :/

dumbdumb rocks :D

dinner with kp just now. lol. had a nice chat about money. LOL. hahaha. well it feels good to talk to you after like so long! rest well kay :D

must be nice being you,
since you can be selfish anytime you want to be.

sometimes, i just wish i could read people's minds.

2009-03-30T21:58:00.005+08:00

it must be easy being you all, to push things to others when you don't feel like taking any responsibilities in at all. i swear i'll never be like all of you.

touch rugby isn't as scary as i imagined it to be. lol i was quite scared at first cos i thought it'll be some rough game but i think it's easier to understand than basketball (though i still prefer basketball more) haha. IIT school got the 3rd place. not bad :D overall the game was quite fun but i didn't get to play much. stupid flu :/

thanks for the concern!

anyway i am down to 125 pages to go, and an unfinished tikey shirt design. will try and get everything done ASAP. come on val, add oil add oil!

i wish this flu could just leave me alone. =.="
& tomorrow will be a long~ day for me. ARGH!

Epik High - Love Love Love.mp3

sometimes i wonder, why do people lose focus so easily?

so tell me, does it make you feel good to look down on people? you're just jealous you can't do as well as how other people can, and you're just wasting your time trying to make yourself sound / look better. drop it.

2009-03-29T16:44:00.003+08:00

i'm finally home! hahaha. omgah my throat is kiling me and my nose is running around while my head spins like nobody's business. i really hope i won't fall sick :/ but despite me feeling unwell, i feel so relieved and happy now. lols. x)

i guess it's always better to talk your feelings out to someone reliable. hahaha. thanks for listening and for being there. (: you know you really made me feel alot better. i hope you feel better too! :D

i feel so thankful that i have such great friends. (:

okay now i'm gonna get something to eat and then get some rest. i'll be having a war with my script tonight. LOL. xD

we cannot predict what may happen, but we can learn to trust.
at times disappointments are inevitable, we just gotta accept it and move on.

2009-03-29T05:22:00.002+08:00

i feel so weird now. i realise i havent been myself these few days and today it struck me that without her presence i'm kinda lost as of what to do. she was always there as my 'back-up' cos i know she understands me whatever i do, but now it feels like i have lost my greatest pillar of support. it's funny how my greatest strength has also became my greatest weakness :/ and i just dont want to change for the worst but i feel so unsure now. i became rather indecisive and unstable. i must learn to be stronger.

and people, i am NOT emo for sure. (:

currently waiting for first bus. lol. ivy ho went off to cambodia for GC. bon voyage and have a safe trip! see ya soon xD have fun. (:

ahh i am so dead. i hope i don't fall sick at this period of time. :/

i wish i could stop feeling so insecure about everything.

2009-03-28T00:27:00.003+08:00

when a maid goes to toilet. HAHAHA.
the rest of the pics are in facebook already. i'll upload to picasa tmr (hopefully) :D

dinner at subway = loves. haha. i'm sorry that mich can't come along but there's always next time, alright? (:

went to meet rio, jolene, weeyou, wenyan and zhenxiang for dinner just now. ate subway! haha. after that we headed to century square to play arcade. didn't play cos i was a bit lazy plus there was no time crisis 2 or 3 or ddr. there's not even daytona there ): hahaha.

after that took 18 home. then the hellish period of typing script continues. lol.

158 PAGES TO GO! AND I AM DAMN SLEEPY TO CONTINUE NOW. LOL.

thanks reid for cheering me up in audi just now. (:

i don't think i have the strength to leave you.
i'm really sorry.

2009-03-27T15:27:00.006+08:00

dinner and dance was really fun! haha. some people were wondering what i'm dressing as, the answer is easy : french maid. LOL. pictures in facebook, will upload to picasa when i'm not so lazy (:

thanks alot diana for the make-uping and the ride to marriot hotel! you rock to the core! lovesss \m/

after d&d, i cabbed down to ivan's place with nelson and michelle since nelson asked me to accompany him. took nelson's car there, then he drove me to find rio, wenyan, weeyou, ty, and mok. lol we got lost but it was plain funny. anyway he dropped me off there, then send mich home then he went home. thanks for the ride, nel! loves. \m/

didnt really eat cos by the time i reached there, they were done eating. lol. went to find the rest at mansion, then some of us headed to ty's house. there were me, ivy, marc, wenyan, rio, weeyou, ty (lol since it's his hse), zhen xiang (sorry if there's spelling error, i don't know how to spell his name), jolene, and mok. stayed there til 6++ then went off with marc and ivy. (:

overall i really enjoyed d&d since it was damn fun looking at others dressing up. lol.

i finally am here. it ends tonight. (:
thank you for the memories.
Avenged Sevenfold - Seize the Day.mp3

2009-03-26T01:16:00.004+08:00

Simple Plan - Perfect.mp3

you know, it's never easy to fulfill people's expectations when it's really beyond human's reach. lol. i'm coping well, and if you ask me, i really think i'm not doing bad over here. if you really care, try and take a peek into my life instead of accusing me of things i did not do. i know i'm not an excellent straight A student, but at least i'm active in school and i am enjoying my life. don't compare me with her, i'm not her and i have my own way to live my life. if only you both are here, you'd understand that i'm always trying to do my best in my own way too. i don't want to be treated like a nerdy robot who stays at home and do nothing but study. ):

i know my result dropped, but i promise myself i'd improve next sem!

didn't do much things for today. lol. accompanied ts, ivy and marc to find their d&d costumes. mich was there too. saw weeyou, ty, px and mok too. AND diana, yufei, alex, and ryan were there TOO. hahahaha. it was quite fun watching them trying the costumes and all. (:

after that headed to school with ts and marc for main comm meeting. meeting was alright. went supper with rio, ts, dave, ahmad, and jolene. took bus 8 with dave then homesweethome.

and again, i can't wait for d&d! will post some pictures on the next update for sure :D

thanks for making my day a better one. (:

2009-03-25T03:30:00.002+08:00

smiling wide from ear to ear (:
& it's all thanks to you :P
sorry to michelle cos i didnt go sch in the end. i kinda want my bed today. lols.

i remember liking a few Savage Garden's songs long time ago and kinda forget about them ever since i start liking kpop songs. lol but yeah anyway their songs are nice and some of them have nice lyrics! in case people are wondering, Savage Garden sings Truly Madly Deeply. lol. i like the song I knew I loved you (:

okay so i'm off to sleep now. 5 more days to script deadline, 197 pages to go; and i have to get tikey shirt design done a.s.a.p. plus i need to pack for moving house. good game, val. LOL.

2009-03-24T19:21:00.005+08:00

random pictures. lol. i love my mac photobooth (:

i finally got myself a costume for d&d! hahaha. thanks alot to michelle for accompanying me (: and omgah she successfully SHOP for alot of stuffs today. lols. i think today's "date" was quite fun (except the fact that i bit my ulcer again! T.T)

was supposed to go to school for the nightwalk thingy but in the end they had too many helpers so i couldn't go. :/ and so here i am, feeling damn bored, stuck at home to do my script and tikey's shirt design. roar. the stupid giraffe said the program shirt design is blardy nice. i wanna see T.T

& lol super random during the phone call please. :P

DID I MENTION THAT I TALKED TO MICHELLE ON THE PHONE UNTIL 4 AM LAST NIGHT? LOL. MY PHONE BATTERY WENT FLAT. :X
(okay i just made myself sound freaking lessie. wtf?) HAHA

kay shall end the post here. can't wait for d&d (:

hmm it's ironic how people want some people to be committed, but when they start to commit, then people start judging them.

2009-03-24T04:14:00.002+08:00

Simple Plan - Save You.mp3

no, it's not what you all think it is.

2009-03-24T01:13:00.003+08:00

first of all, i'm sorry if i'm really irritable today. really.

went to bugis this afternoon to get some costumes for d&d. i didn't rent any in the end, cos i couldnt find anything i like. but anyway i had fun trying some of the costumes. (: walked around to find another costume shop, but still couldnt find one that i like! argh. in the end i decided to give up finding for costumes and make use of what i have in my wardrobe. or maybe i'm going to find costume again tomorrow! for now i don't really wanna care.

after that, dined at food court with mich, rio, des, and ts. ivy, marcus, wenyan and ty were at MOS burger eating also. so after we were done, we went to find them at MOS. went to play pool (omg i lost to michelle! but nvm i still win ivy. HAHAHA) and i only managed to win 1 match. lol. after that supper-ed at mac, then cabbed home with marcus and ts. that's it.

today, i am quite unlucky. my ulcer is getting worse cos i accidentally bit it, my left thumb is a little swollen because of an unfortunate accident during pool (lol) and guess what? my flu suddenly came back again. roars? haha. go away all the pains. x)

kthxbye! gnights.

2009-03-23T02:25:00.003+08:00

life will be so much better if people can just learn to appreciate what they have instead of mourning over what they can't have.

reid is so cool, he's like a paranormal! i can't believe he actually know me so well even though we never met each other in real life before. lol. you rock la. (:

just a random entry.

Tonight I've fallen and I can't get up
I need your loving hands to come and pick me up
And every night I miss you
I can just look up
And know the stars are
Holding you, holding you, holding you
Tonight

2009-03-22T16:22:00.002+08:00

you know you'll always be missed (:

thank you for all those who came and sent her off! haha. and thanks to my friends who are still battling with mahjong LOL (and ts and mich too!) (: thank you for being there.

i'm gonna cut hair and dye hair today! will post somemore pics later xD

2009-03-22T01:02:00.003+08:00

to my dearest bestest friend in the whole wide world. you know there are so many words to say to you but i always don't know how to express them. i am really glad and thankful we're friends for so long; i'm very happy to have a friend like you. i know from now on it's gonna be tough for you cos you'll be alone at a foreign country but hey, remember i'll always be praying for your success! thank you so much for being there for me at my highest and lowest. thank you so much for all these years. i know our friendship will remain strong no matter where we go, but separation is always the saddest, yes? i hope all these while i've been a reliable friend for you; a friend whom you can be proud of. you know, i treat you just like a twin sister. be happy over there and study hard! i don't know when we will meet again but till the time comes, we need to walk a different path, yes? haha. get yourself loads and loads of new friends, okay? here are some songs that i wanna dedicate to you: Stay the Same, Brighter (Paramore) and Bella Luna (cos it's your fave!) i promise i'll visit you someday and we're gonna get pissed drunk when the time comes! i love you bestie. take care and bon voyage! (:

ALWAYS KNOW THAT YOU SHINE BRIGHTER THAN ANYONE, KAYS? (:

2009-03-21T18:52:00.005+08:00

camwhoring round 2! this time, i have michelle as my partner. HAHAHA.
(psst, i never steal ts's hoodie! LOL)

loves~ \m/

2009-03-21T16:51:00.003+08:00

val is stupid - ts
val is a silly girl - michelle
val is a dumbass - desmond
YOU THREE ARE JUST JEALOUS - val.
LMFAO.

okay so it's raining now and i'm with desmond in clubroom. mich and ts had gone to kfc to get me food. THANKS YOU TWO! i feel so loved & touched. LMFAO.

the weather is just perfect for camwhoring. HAHAHAHA.

haha okay i'm off to type script now. jy val! XD
only Heaven knows...

2009-03-20T15:04:00.003+08:00

i guess when you're playing game online, you're somewhat different from the way you are in real life. i guess what ken told me yesterday was partially true. hahaha. i miss my old audi friends. ): they seem to be mia-ing like nobody's business. ohwells. x)

i didn't really have a good sleep last night cos i dreamt of something weird. it's like i was living in a very funny place; it's like a big big castle with all sorts of traps around and i had to be very careful just to go to the toilet o.o" and what makes it funnier was that my 'bodyguards' were all voodoo dolls. then when the sun sets in my dream, all sorts of monsters come and attack the castle, fighting with voodoo dolls. lol? i don't even know what word to describe my dream. it's even weirder than someone's dream of killing hitler with a carrot bomb. LOL.

guess what? i'm still left with 236 pages to go. gosh. @.@"

i really feel like i should stop blogging but then when i browse through my archives, it feels like a waste if i delete this blog. zzz. ~.~

meeting dearest utz later! woots finally xD

kay i'll update more later when i come back. now i shall prepare to go out already. byes! :)
i wonder if you feel the loss at all.

edited @ 10.52pm.
okay so i'm finally back home. (: meeting utz & her family feels really great cos i haven't seen her for awhile. lols. accompanied her dad & bro to shop for groceries while she accompanies her granny to find souvenirs for her grandpa. lols! like family outing sia. :X:X:X i kinda feel sad just now cos i only have few more days before she flies to U.S. argh!! cannot be sad. must send her off with a smile. ):

i had subway for dinner today! HAHAHA. *smiles at michelle* :X

2009-03-19T18:16:00.004+08:00

GOD, PLEASE LET ME PASS MY OOPG SUPP PAPER. T.T
i really do NOT wish to retake that blardy module. argh!!!

anyway today was an okay day. was supposed to meet utz but the plan got changed to tomorrow. haha :/ oh my corona. lol.

nothing much to say today. argh i am so screwed. i'm so gonna get killed by my sis if i fail oopg. T.T

on a brighter side, the bed is all mine today since sis is away til sunday. HAHA :D
FREEDOM FTW. \m/

edited @ 10.31 pm.
anyone has any nice manga / anime to intro? i am really bored ):
i'm already done with fairy tail and liar game. nice mangas. haha.
and who would expect that ken to play audi! HAHAHA.
nice to know you, ninja. lmao. XD

2009-03-19T00:19:00.002+08:00

i wasn't planning to blog earlier on but then i changed my mind. lol. currently am trying hard to absorb what my brain can absorb about oopg. and i really hope i can wake up tomorrow morning! or else, GG. i don't wish to retake this subject ):

anyway 2 things that made my day today:

- a phone call with senior kelvin. i really miss talking to him so yeah. wahahaha. :D yes i'll definitely visit you at SP only if you promise me to visit me at TP. hope to see you soon!

- a phone call with dearest utz. man, she's really leaving Singapore too soon. ): but i know that we'll still be together mentally no matter where we are. hahaha.

kay so i better study again! roar (i have a sudden urge of reading fairy tail, but that can wait. xD)

lmaos. i love how i'm making fun of some people without them knowing the meaning. WAHAHAHA. :X i'm such a biatch but it's okay. LOL.

kay, off to study then sleep. WOOTS, 279 MORE PAGES TO GO FOR SCRIPT! JY VAL XD

when you say everything will be alright, it feels like the world just gets refreshed and things just suddenly become better.
i really miss you.

2009-03-18T04:32:00.004+08:00

happy birthday, Ms Cherry Thian! thank you for being such a fun and crazy teacher! lol. thank you for the Z! :D and yeah i am so happy that you're iitsc in-charge as well. lol. loves!!! :D:D:D best teacher award! hahaha.

to my lousiest yet nicest prefect senior alive, kelvin chia! hahaha. i miss talking to you badly ): anyway, happy birdday! may you and her last long long and may you have a nice bday. meet up soon, kay? :D

dbsk's survivor mv. (:

i have no comment or whatsoever about today cos i have too many things i want to say. i don't even know how to start so i shall not say anything.

but thanks ky and coburn, i'll do my best (: dumbdumb you rock laa. :D
and thank you too, rio. nothing personal, really. thanks!
and not forgetting thanks ts, kp, mich, ivy and ivan.

omg nowadays i seem to be thanking everyone everyday. -.-" hahaha. loves. \m/

i apologise to anyone who thinks i'm being weird today. i realise that my temper was quite bad for the day so yeah. i promise it won't happen again. sorry!

kay so i better continue doing my script. oh and yes, oopg supp is on thursday, good luck to those retaking! i confirm will pass it no matter what! jy me. haha.

i attempted to start writing letter but ended up stopping after i write 'dear eugene'. sorry i just don't know what to write! :/

staying over utz's place tomorrow. woots can't wait! :D

kay nights world.
just let me sleep til i'm strong enough to tank everything.

2009-03-17T01:53:00.004+08:00

ts just sent me a song by Laura Pausini titled It's not goodbye. emo song, but i really like the lyrics. thanks ts (:

michelle & ts, please don't worry about me. i am really okay (:

i know i am strong enough to make it through.
even though it really is hard sometimes, but i know i can do it.

can tomorrow please don't come?

i think i just need time to sort out my brain from all the hay-wires (lol) and yeah. sorry dumbdumb cos i never go revision lecture. lols. :X

i feel so loved. HAHA.

edited:
oh & i love BOA. like totally :D

Boa Eien MV. she's just the hottest girl alive. seriously. her dancing just gets better and better! T-T boa unni hwaiting! saranghae :D

loves \m/

2009-03-16T23:56:00.002+08:00

quite honestly i don't feel too good right now. i'm really not looking forward for tomorrow to come; something i haven't felt for quite some time now. argh what the heck.

anyway i missed oopg revision lecture today despite my careperson calling me up at 10 in the morning. i better get a parent's letter for attendance sake and i need someone to teach me oopg. anyone? ): i still can't believe i failed though. but i will definitely pass the supp! (:

went to school anyway. had lunch at jurong cafe with mich, ivy and ivan. then head back to school, slacked (managed to read 20 chapters of fairy tail!) then headed to ak for dinner as usual. then, home sweet home.

i have been feeling weird the whole day. lols. :/ but yeah that doesn't mean i'm not okay.

so i better run now since i need my sleep. lol. ciaos.

oh yeah. thanks dumbdumb & ts! ivan, mich and ivy too. loves \m/

David Archuleta - Crush.mp3

2009-03-16T02:41:00.008+08:00

okay updating again! now that camp is over i really have loads of free time on hand. lols.

Super Junior Sorry Sorry MV. i kinda like the song but most of all i think kyuhyun and donghae are freaking gorgeous in this mv. and as always, donghae cures just all kind of unhappiness in my heart! hahaha. donghae is love forever. (: suju hwaiting! XD

FT Island Bad Woman MV. they finally make a comeback, but my dearest wonbin is not in it ): oh well. their new member seunghyun is quite good looking though (: my dearest jaejin cried! omg. hahaha. it's quite a nice mv XD

i can't believe i haven't seen this til like just now! LOL. what have i been doing, man? lol. Big Bang's Number 1 MV. i swear GD is killing me with his random glasses and hairstyle. but that's why i love him. HAHAHA. all of them are too hot to resist man. XD

DBSK Kiss the Baby Sky MV. i think they all look damn cute in here. and omg i swear jaejoongie looks like an angel. micky's high voice is love! hahaha. dbsk forever (: LOVES. hahaha.

snsd fever forever! haha. this is their song 'way to go'. sounds familiar? yes, same tune as the Haptic CF! my fave song! lolol. they are just damn cute la. unnideul! i am your biggest fan ever :D

snsd dancing to circus. they are damn dope lahs (:

kay so i think thats enough videos posted. LOL. i shall end this post here. XD nights.

Baby I like you like that, I have to forget you
I love your way every day, it doesn't work well
Baby I like you like that, I get happy when I see you
I love your way every day, I think of you
Baby I like you like that, you have to be happy
I love your way every day, I'm avoiding you
Baby I like you like that, you have to be well
I love your way every day, I think of you

edited:
omg revision lecture tomorrow. 3pm to 5pm. anyone retaking oopg? lols.
& i feel much better after crying it out. hahaha.
thanks dumbdumb! :D

no comment.

2009-03-14T16:57:00.014+08:00

i haven't blogged properly for a few days but yeah since i am free today so why not. x) am supposed to go to ivy's later, but idk. i feel so revived after such a good sleep! hahaha.

oltc was great. i am so grateful to everyone for doing their best and also for putting in a lot of efforts. so this post shall be dedications. and of course, the first person is none other than...

my idiotic program head. hahaha. thanks alot for all the efforts and time you put in to make the whole program works. i did my best to assist you and i hope that helps. now that the camp is over, please get some good rest and eat healthy food! lol. i am really glad that you're the program head. really. thanks, rio! (: i love you!

PSQUAD 2009, MY PRIDE!
i really don't know what to do without you all. thank you for being responsible & great programmers! i love all of you to pieces! i can't thank you enough for all the efforts you put in. thanks alot! sorry i couldn't always be there for you guys when you all need help... and diana, i love the nightwalk video! :D ivy, thanks for being there whenever i am stress! lol. alex, wee you, nelson, the 3 of you rocks to the core! thanks for all the efforts! surin, yufei, jon, ryan, andrew, thanks alot for cooperating with the video as well! sky, thanks for the time you spent for the video, and also for everything else! you were a great help and great asset to us. even though it's sad you're graduating, but i'll always remember you! and i do respect you alot alot alot! :D andy, thanks for being a helpful asst. program head! (: PSQUAD ROCKS! LOVES! \m/

my super duper random FA partner! you're like the best partner i can ever get (haha just like what you said in the postcard!) thanks alot for helping me along during the camp. sorry i had to leave you alone every now and then, but i hope i did my part well. just want you to know that if my partner weren't you, i wouldn't perform so well (i think). you rocks! hahaha. mathix forever. (:

another pride of mine, MATHIX! best empire. haha. thank you for being such great campers! i am more than certain that all of you can make great OLs. so sorry i had to leave you all every now and then, but please know that i'm always with all of you. i hope i did a good job in guiding you all. loves! rock on, MATHIX! MA MA MA MA THIX THIX THIX THIX THIX! HOO HAA ALGEBRA! :D

all the main comms and sub comms! thanks for all the hard work! especially to log team and food team. you guys were really great helps! hahaha. oltc committee really rocks with all of you as the members. thanks a million! (:

and special personal thank you dedication falls to diana, ivy, danny, kok peng, tian seng, ivan, james, shar, michelle and kangyan. thank you for being there when i broke down, or when i need someone to talk to, and yeah. thanks alot! and thanks desmond too for his wise words. hahaha. loves. (: (i only posted the pics of those i have during oltc. sorry if i didnt post any pic of you!)

went to watch watchmen yesterday, it was alright! hahaha. after that me, wee you, wen yan and rio went over to rio's place. left around 3++ and fell asleep straightaway once i saw my bed. lol. sorry for not replying, giraffe! but i am okay so i hope you're okay too. :D

okay so i shall end my post here since it's already freaking long. lols. ciaos people! (:

2009-03-12T04:21:00.000+08:00

fucking immature hypocrites.

2009-03-10T17:51:00.003+08:00

sometimes, things seem to be nicer when you see them from outside.

anyway i am now in clubroom, day 0 for OLTC. with just few hours of sleep, i feel really stoned for the moment. and it's bad cos my mind seems to be working 'over-time'. wahaha.

kay so i better go now cos i may talk rubbish if i continue typing.
& yes, OLTC '09 will rule the world :D
LET'S ROCK PSQUAD!!! XD

sad. ):

2009-03-09T15:46:00.003+08:00

i've always believed that nothing is impossible, nothing is not worth trying.

currently at clubroom, feeling very terrible thanks to the terrible stomach cramp. i have yet to buy camp stuffs and i doubt i even have the time to buy them. =.=" but well i think SHOULD be alright. haha.

it has been raining these few days, let's hope it doesn't rain during the OLTC! i want everyone to have fun during the camp ): rain go away~

kangyan, the mose hamsom and kyut guy in his own universe, i really wanna thank you for the help! :D

oh yeah and thanks ivan & ts! ^^

i'll post a proper and long post next time. hahaha.

2009-03-08T03:06:00.001+08:00

i have a lot of things i wish for in life. i wish i could be someone who can comfort my friends when they are down, i wish i could be wiser when making a decision, i wish i could be strong to face all the troubles ahead, and i wish for myself to be less selfish. apparently, it's hard to make those wishes come true.

i am so sorry if my words are not helping.

anyway!
few more days to OLTC. i'm really looking forward to it (: for those OLs who are attending the camp, check out IITSC blog for more details, kay? the link is http://it-shouts.blogspot.com. :D

val can one. val is zai.
jia you!

2009-03-06T13:10:00.001+08:00

i feel very empty now and i dont know why.
maybe because i am kinda tired?
haha.
just let me sleep.

2009-03-06T01:09:00.003+08:00

kay so i am finally blogging from my hse computer again! x)

today was a so-so day. went home around 10+ in the morning and realised that i forgot to take my hse key from my bag when i reached my front door, and my sis was already off to work. so i cabbed back to school and took my keys and cabbed back home. there goes $10. ):

kay so i feel much lighter now that everything is almost done! woots.

i better go sleep now since i need to wake up quite early tomorrow. roars. x)

& it feels good just being with you (:
ily. :D

2009-03-05T00:33:00.003+08:00

okay i am at like clubroom at this hour? zzz. doing up some prog stuff now with mario and diana. omg i feel so tired. lols.

my morning was bad thanks to my sister, my afternoon was tiring because i had to go to meeting with an uncleared head, and yeah my evening is like that lor.

i think i am going crazy soon, and my crazy sis doesn't help.
sucks to be me.

2009-03-04T01:08:00.004+08:00

kay, so i have to be doing my wu ling mi ji for oltc AND type the zillion pages of my script, but those things can wait til i post this post.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY SWEETHEART, ATY!
HAHAHA. surprise? of course your da jie never forgets her beloveds' birthdays. LOL. hahaha. may you stay happy and healthy all the time and must not let any bad things affect you, alrighty? i love you lah (: and yes, i just have to choose this picture cos it kinda looks unglam. HAHAHAHA. ahhh i miss the visli days! xD thanks for always being there when i need someone to gossip and share my problems with. LOL. :D take care and enjoy your special day! with much love. (:

ooh yeah i suddenly remembered about my visli visualisation piece, which is somehow related to ky's msn nick. lol. kangyan, must stay strong, kay? you can do it one. :D:D:D

above was my final, visli piece. and although i didn't score an A, i am proud of it cos i really put in a LOT of effort while doing it. i posted this before somewhere in my blog lols but yeah. this drawing was drawn based on the korean song 'Holding Back the Tears' (Vacation Ost.) sung by DBSK. i'll post the translation at the end of the post (:

kay so now that i'm done, time to get back to work. :D

Holding Back the Tears
by DBSK
lyrics credits to aheeyah.com

A picture that gets smeared in white
And my fragrance that seems to have faded away
All get concealed by the glaring cloud

My heart that has no words
Slowly starts to move my feelings
Those times that slipped through
Are in my hands

I'm holding back the tears
I walk trying to lessen the weight of my heart
To a place that is neither close nor far
Where a different me stands
I will not cry

I bring my two hands together again
To a place that will hear it
As I live though these unmemorable times

Though it seems stupid, we’re always together
The pain that I want to let go
Dries the tears that flows through my body

I'm living with my tears
I walk trying to lessen the weight of my heart
To a place that is neither close nor far
Where a different me stands
I will not cry

I'm holding back the tears
I run adding to the weight of my faith
To a place that is neither high nor low
Where a different me stands again
With a small smile I can laugh

i really hope it isn't what i think it is, cos it's what i fear the most all these while even though i never mentioned it. i'd rather not know than knowing. but then again, if it were to be that way, then so be it. i am so sorry i am always not of any help. i am so terribly sorry that i worry too much and never make you feel better. i am so sorry if you feel like you don't need me. i'll leave you alone if that's what you want.

sorry, i am just not feeling really great. am i really a bother to you?

2009-03-03T03:59:00.001+08:00

marley and me is nice, so it's a must watch! :D

edited @ 5.27 pm;

currently at clubroom, waiting for sky to discuss about program stuff. mario is coughing like some old man while reading the mr. kiasu. HAHA. anyway thanks ivy for letting us stay for the night again! x)

it's always funny how we see simple things so complicatedly and vice versa. lols.

anyway i know that i have people having bad impression of me but i've decided not to bother about it so much since it doesnt do me any good. so yeah, people who hate me, please do your best to stay out of my life, kay? :D if i bother you so much, come right to my face and say what makes you feel unhappy so i can change luh. :)

omg it's another rainy dayyy! lol.

i hope i stop dreaming about it already! roars. ): it doesn't make me feel good.
& thanks for the comfort. (:

2009-03-02T14:04:00.003+08:00

i am revived!

hahaha 12 hours of sleep really makes me feel fully charged now. (: woke up around 1 hour ++ ago, bathed, and went to buy my lunch. haha. right now i am eating as i'm blogging.

i may be going to clubroom later. haha. x)

had a very fairytale dream last night! i have been having dreams lately. did i mention that i dreamt of me dying and sky scolding me at my funeral? lol kay that was damn random but funny. anyway last night i dreamt that i have 2 dogs who are as naughty as marley times two. LOL. and in my dream, my dogs can transform in to humans! how cool is that? xD

talking about fairytale, i am actually reading fairytail now since ky reccommended it to me. LOL. it's a nice manga! :D

hmm so to end my post today, i'm gonna post a picture! you know a picture says a thousand words, right? so here it is.

HAHAHA i swear this picture was taken damn randomly. i love the both of them! LOLS.

kay better go now. take cares, people! :D

are you alright? rest well kay. :$

2009-03-02T00:45:00.002+08:00

i'm kind of blogging with my eyes half closed now. lols. ~.~

kay! so i need to thank all my psquad members for their efforts and time! let's aim for more improvement and make an unforgettable camp for everyone. (: we can do it! hahaha.

weather was okay today, nice weather to sleep (and the fact that i slept very little last night doesn't help) but then again it's really my fault for not sleeping. hahaha. i feel so stoned the whole day. x)

thanks for the mc chicken & coke, nelson!
thanks for the fried rice, rio! :D ♥
and thanks for the cab, kp~ lol

i think thats all for now. i really need to sleep.
ARGH! need to type script tomorrow.
sobsob... T_T

2009-02-28T23:22:00.005+08:00

HORHOR! CAUGHT WATCHING HENTAI!!! LOLOL :X

currently at ivy's place, was about to have movie marathon but then have loads of things to settle. @.@ the whole day's weather was damn cooling and damn nice to sleep in can. hahaha.

went to buy some stuffs this afternoon with rio and ahmad. after we were done, rio left then ahmad and me went to clubroom to put the stuffs. met michelle, desmond and irving. then dined at kfc with desmond and mich and ahmad, irving left earlier. basically thats all?

idk what to write! lol.

ok end here. byebye all!

& sisterhood rocks. :D

2009-02-27T21:57:00.003+08:00

i miss everyone from ANIC. my tetras, especially! and of course, uncle tony, darius, charmaine, pierre, tim nga, terry, joakim, etc etc. ): oh and i miss my long hair! lol.

it's just that whenever i am involved in a theatre show, i seem to be able to put my mind at ease and it's like as if i'm in another world, away from my problems. haha. i miss acting badly but then again, i don't think i have the time for that. :/

anyway~

today was quite a good day. woke up around 8.30 cos i had to attend the interest group discussion thingy with harris. met him at mushroom at 10 am, then we headed to lobby c lv 4. when we reached there, they said we arrived to early and so we headed to itas to eat breakfast first, then we walked back there after that.

the discussion was alright, it ended around 11++ and so i practically have nothing to do. i had to stay back in school since meeting was at 6pm. so slacked at lobby, played psp and tried finding things to do... blablabla. around 2, ber opened clubroom so i finally got a place to relax in. lol. lunched at itas with ber, rio and sky, then stayed at clubroom all the way til meeting starts. after meeting, ate at ang keong then homesweethome. :D

hmm okay i better get started with my script now. omg, 489 more pages to go! *dies*

2009-02-26T12:28:00.003+08:00

there are many things i can't say but you'd understand just by knowing me.

anyway, i'll blog more about yesterday. went to tm to meet ts and michelle. lunched at the food court, then we took 65 to town. accompanied mich to change for her iPhone, then the 3 of us headed to cineleisure to the iShop. haha. i saw the fish mouse i wanted to buy last time! it's $49 and i will really buy it when i get some extra cash. lol. :D after that we found out that vanness wu would be coming there at 7pm (and it was already around 6pm by then!) so i was quite excited. lol.

walked over to heeren but couldnt find the thing i wanted to buy. so ended up heading back to cineleisure again to eat at BBQ Chicken House. hahaha. after dinner, mich mrt-ed home while me and ts took 65 again.

i really enjoyed my day! thanks ts, mich! :D

anyway after that me and ts alighted at tampines safra there, then we walked to school. headed to clubroom and it was already 9 by then. thanks ts for accompanying me!!! really sorry if i ps you or anything. didnt mean to. ): but yeah ts left, then me, nelson, rio and desmond headed to a wanton me stall near ivan's place. ate a little (it's really nice!) then we headed to ivan's. sky also got come! hahaha. then nelson, desmond, sky and ivan were busy playing mahjong while i challenge mario play the mini pool thingy. haha.

after that (due to the super ungodly phone call i made to ivy and a suan-ing session by ivy, michelle and marcus) i decided to head down to ivy's to watch some movies she rented. so took cab with mario then dropped him off, then i go all the way to ivy's. ONLY TO FIND OUT THAT MICHELLE NEEDS TO LEAVE. T-T" but yeah anyway watched wild child and avp 2. haha. after that marcus k.o. so i had to wait til 4 am for him to wake up then both of us shared cab home. then homesweethome :D

slept around 7+ this morning and woke up before 12. i really don't feel sleepy at all! amazing. HAHAHA.

okay i think i better plan a 4e3 outing soon. :D yasmin, i miss you!!! hahahaha.

hmm so today i need to type script, and i want to catch marley and me. muahaha.
i think i blogged long enough. will update again later if i go out. HAHA.
ciaos!

you made it as easy as 1234...
& i hope you feel better (:

2009-02-25T21:42:00.001+08:00

i think i was feeling quite emo this morning so i posted random stuffs. HAHA. but i am okay already! :D

went shopping with ts and michellet just now. lols. grats mich for finally getting her new iPhone. xD

and yeah i feel realllllly fine now x)

woots! i am at clubroom doing nothing. hahaha. attendance: me, ts, nelson, mario, desmond.

k better go. byebyeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!

PS: nel says hi.
LOL.

2009-02-25T13:01:00.005+08:00

at the end of the day, i just wonder again if i am okay.
come on val, you need to be stronger.
and things are definitely better already. :)
so i need to ENJOY MY HOLIDAY. HAHAHA. ;D

tic toc tic toc tic toc.
did you hear the time passing?
woots.

i'm not gonna let myself be affected.
i must not be affected.
i must remain who i am now.
tadaaah :D

going out with michellet and ts later.
shopping! hahahaha.
then again, i need to save money.
booo ):
if tomorrow were the last time you see me, would you still treat me that way?
idk what am i doing now.
just finished calling some people for OLTC.
hmm they are like, very happy! and thats good :)

& i need to buy a new phone D:
but then again my current phone still works fine.
just that i am very tempted to get an iPhone.
hahaha :/

i miss my secondary school friends!
and the basketball buddies.
and my friends at indonesia.
dots, what's with me?
it's not time to get sentimental.
shucks.

grats kim babo, for getting into nyp!
must remember that no matter what happens, i'll be here!
:D:D:D:D
loves.

Happy birthday, ahsoon!
may you find your ms.right soon and your sip faster finish.
HAHAHA. :D enjoy your special day! ^^

2009-02-25T02:32:00.002+08:00

okay so i reached home around an hour ago. :) few things to be happy today (or rather, yesterday); no more cmaths2, no more exam, and cmaths2 paper was very easy. HAPPY! hahaha. :D

after paper, slacked at clubroom with the usuals! LOL. after that me, michelle, ivy, marcus, mario and nelson headed to tm to catch the movie slumdog millionaire. we wanted to watch it since it won so many oscar awards! haha. personally i think the movie was nice, it deserves the awards. but i didnt quite enjoy it cos i watched it from way too close and my neck was hurting. lol. but yeah overall it was good! :D

after movie, we headed to punggol to eat nasi lemak. then we played pool! hahaha. i didnt win a single round today ): how sad is that? lol. after that played arcade awhile, then nelson drove us home. thank you so much for the ride! :D

hmm i think thats all for the day. i am actually very sleepy right now but for some reason i just cant seem to sleep. lol.

FREEEEEEDOOOOM!!!

so now, time to type script and update fanfics. LOL. :X

good night all!

jiayou for those who still have exams and projects :D

& HAPPY BDAY AHSOON! :D

2009-02-23T23:02:00.000+08:00

happy bday, Rio! :D

i hope you had a great day today and i hope you'll be happy always. finally 20! hahaha. :D take cares, giraffe! lol.

okay so i am just blogging for the sake of blogging.

btw kangyan, i'm so sorry about the jelly bean. LOL.
kay, time for cmaths now. ciaos! :D

2009-02-22T13:03:00.006+08:00

i came home at 6++ am just now, from ahsoon's chalet. thanks for dropping me off, nelson! :D

so yeah i really hope ahsoon had a great night. although he was drunk and so were some other people, but nothing beats spending time with friends, right? hahaha.

happy birthday to alex goh! may you have a great, wonderful bday :D and yeah you'll have to find a woman soon so be prepared for problems. LOL.

i can't believe i only slept for 5 hours and yet i feel soooo not tired. lol.

kay so i better start revising on my cmaths2 now. :D exam tomorrow and i don't wanna do badly for this one. hahaha.

have you ever heard the story about a girl falling in love with someone she can't love? ever heard about the story in which, no matter how she tries to make people understand her, she just can't? and ever heard about the story whereby she doesn't want people to get hurt because of her, but at the end of the day, everything just happens? AND, ever heard about when she tries to make her stand clear, she got misunderstood???
well, i'll tell you my story some other day.
edited: and i'll tell you how i live with it and go through it. :)

ever wonder what does my blog song means?
well here's the lyrics translation.

Omoide ni dekinai ; I can't make them into memories

I'm unable to find the words to [tell] you,
who is going on a trip next spring
I stopped my bike & trembled from the breeze
that blew from the other side of the ocean

I was listening to the sound of the waves alone with my eyes closed
"I love you" were the words I couldn't say...
I softly, softly whispered them

The season when the cherry blossoms fall,
the fireworks that summer,
I was always thinking of you, of you
The sadness of autumn,
the evenings I am alone,
Although someday, someday they will change into faint memories,
you know, you're the only thing that can't become a memory

You said that you wanted to see the other side of the ocean
& looked up to the sky, in your eyes
I wonder when it was I fell in love
Tell me that it's a one-sided love

"I'm not afraid of anything," you laughed
Someday we will be so far apart that I can't see your back
Even if you cross the ocean,
I'm sure, I'm sure that I won't forget you

Our wings will surely take us far & high in our separate skies
Leaving now behind
I'm sure that we won't regret the things that we left behind
They are, they are surely the seeds of the smiles left behind in our youth
Yes, my first love can't become a memory

I understood then bitterness of love when I fell in love with you
It was the first time that I shed tears for someone else's sake

The season when the cherry blossoms fall,
the fireworks that summer,
I was always thinking of you, of you
The sadness of autumn,
the evenings I am alone,
someday, someday they will change into faint memories

Our wings will surely take us far & high in our separate skies
Leaving now behind
I'm sure that we won't regret the things that we left behind
They are, they are surely the seeds of the smiles left behind in our youth
Yes, you're the only thing that can't become a memory
you can't become a memory

2009-02-20T22:16:00.003+08:00

ooookay.

today, i am feeling damn relieved cos OOPG is over. and i conclude that i'll either borderline pass it or fail it. honestly, i dont really care cos i just wanna get it over and done with. XD now, time to revise for cmaths2.

i felt quite pissed off by my cmsk3's teacher just now, but after awhile i feel really okay. hahaha. i guess i just cant accept the fact that he goes against his own words and he's like super rude to his students, and yet he can teach com skills. TP really need to filter their lecturers.

after paper, me, ivy, michelle and ts lunched at itas. i think there's something wrong with my appetite these few days o.o or maybe it's stress? HAHA cannot be. x) after that headed to clubroom and slacked for awhile, then me, ivy, michelle and ivan headed to bras basah.

bought some stuffs, then ivy and michelle left. me and ivan spent some time walking around bugis junction, then we mrt-ed back to tampines. ate yoshinoya :D thanks for the treat, elmo! next time my turn to treat sushi. HAHAHA. P.S: ivan is a paedophile. LOL.

i'm still very lazy to upload the pictures from my camera. i'll really do it some other day. x)

and ivy ho, thanks for lending me your bed! HAHAHA. :D

i really need to cut my hair ): but i'm saving money to buy some other stuffs now. sighs. okays, i am off to do laundry. ciaos!

i think i need to draw a thicker line.

edited:

i'm so gonna learn this :X

2009-02-20T11:47:00.000+08:00

i think oopg just drives us crazy. HAHA.

2009-02-20T02:39:00.003+08:00

i am currently fighting against the temptation to sleep. @.@"

i will be having my oopg exam in like 11 hours and 50 mins time, and i barely study half of what is needed. but anyway i am not giving up and i shall sleep once i am confident enough to sit for the exam :D btw, i am at ivy ho's house's study room with ts, michellet, ivy, marcus and nelson. other than the freshies, they are cjk. HAHA.

the racquee was alright, not many programmers went but all of us had fun! a lot of things to consider but i am sure we can do it. psquad jia you! :D

the sambal fried rice @ opposite school there is not so bad, but i think the sempang one is nicer. HAHAHA. XD i miss the supper sessions with hidayah, farhan, fariz and lynn! ahh, those days. x)

okay so i better get back to studying now. HAHAHA. all the best for everyone who is having exam tomorrow! lets rock the paperrrr xD

i hope everything is alright.

2009-02-18T11:39:00.003+08:00

i am still at utz's place! hahaha. no pics in this entry yet but as i said in my tagboard, i'm gonna write a long entry now since my bestie is busy drying her hair at the moment. LOL.

anyway, watched eagle eye last night cos utz has the dvd. and honestly, i really wish i could have caught it on the cinema cos it's quite nice. i really like how the computer can plan so many things lol.

after that i was supposed to sleep but i didnt cos we felt like drinking HAHAHA so yeah drank a fair amount of alcohol and i thought i talked funny last night.

sorry if i said anything weird to you.

anyway i'm so gonna miss all this chilling session when she leaves for U.S. ): i do hope she'll do well there though. then maybe someday i can go and visit her. hahahaha. she's leaving on 21st march, btw.

this morning i woke up around 9 to cook! like yeah, finally she's teaching me how to cook macaroni LOL :X i think it tastes alright, but then again i'm not really sure about other people's opinion. and that idiot better appreciate my effort, or else! zzz.

ok i hope this entry is long enough muahaha :D i am off to see doctor now~

edited @ 11.21 pm

okay i thought of posting another entry but honestly i have been updating like very frequent already. lol. basically, i am not having a great day cos my head feels kind of weird and i keep feeling bloated. screw alcohols. @_@" but yeah i promise myself to stop drinking already! (besides not like i always drink anyway) but yeah i am gonna put a drinking curfew on myself. hahaha. :D

and zk likes gee! snsd! TIPPANI. how amazing is that??! welcome to the club, zk! HAHAHA. :D

by the way, i mentioned about going to the doctor, yes? i spent $23.60 today just to get a cream for the idiot skin irritation and i am feeling really cheated now. LOL. ):

and i finally decided on what i should do! i need to concentrate on my OOPG and CMATHS! hahaha.

meeting tomorrow, 12 pm. i HOPE i can wake up. :X and yeah so i am off to revise oopg now. nighteys! i will probably post some pictures when i am not lazy to do so. HAHA. :X

oh and yes, i am glad my effort didn't go to waste! :D

2009-02-17T21:57:00.002+08:00

i am currently at utz's place so i doubt i can update a long post.

anyway went to meet kim babo this afternoon and it feels great to finally catch up with her! hahaha. we sang like almost all the songs we learnt before! (well not really but around there) LOL. will post sone pics tomorrow :D

after that met utz and headed to prata hse to dine. then i went over to her house. cooking breakfast with her tomorrow! woots :X

anyway~

thanks alot for your advices. it really helps. (: and i think i feel much better now. hahaha.

and one more thing; i never meant to hate, i never meant to brag, and i never meant to get involved.

just dont get me wrong.

2009-02-16T16:43:00.001+08:00

okay i am breaking my promise and blogging now.

i just feel like sometimes, we have to take an effort to know someone better first before straightaway jumping to conclusions and start disliking the person.

i know myself very well, i know my limits. but i don't understand why is it that no matter what i do, it bothers some people who are not even involved. face it; i can't please everyone and i don't really care if you want to talk behind my back; cos God knows that i am just doing what i know is right.

if you want to dislike me, the least you could do was to know me more before you start judging me like that.

2009-02-16T14:21:00.004+08:00

this post consists of lyrics. hahaha.
actually more like song titles, of which i find the lyrics meaningful.
it's just a random post, really. :D

1) se7en - baby i like you like that.
2) big bang - haru haru (day by day)
3) bb mak - miss you more
4) dbsk - proud
5) ft island - only one person
6) we the kings - check yes juliet
7) plain white ts - a lonely september
8) big bang - last farewell
9) plain white ts - 1234
10) secondhand serenade - maybe
11) stevie hoang - addicted
12) paramore - brighter
13) gazette - cassis
14) younha - kidarida

i am lazy to add somemore. haha. :D
okay off to school to find ivy ho and michellet now.
ciaos.

and i miss you more each day.

if i could ever write or compose a song,
i guess it'd be easier to describe what am i feeling now.

2009-02-15T21:58:00.002+08:00

currently listening to Check Yes Juliet. haha.

i suddenly thought of a fanfic trailer while i was listening to this. shall do it if i have a free time. xD

hmm today went to school for prog meeting. woke up at 10 and tried to wake the sleepyheads up but yeah. lol. anyway the meeting was quite short. after meeting, me, surin, jon.lee, mario, yufei and ryan went to watch Valkyrie at e-hub! hahaha. the show was quite nice but i teared at the ending. (:

after that ate with jon.lee and mario, then took 21 home. and here i am now.

HAHA. i realised i have been blogging alot. so i'm going to leave my blog alone for 2 days now. :D

once again, happy vday, everyone! loves. :D

2009-02-15T00:08:00.002+08:00

at ivan's place now, slacking with ts, ivy, irving and james. marcus is dont know doing what thing. lol. anyway finally val's day is over! thanks for all the wishes, friends! and i certainly love my mommy :D

lets see. went to watch movie with irving, danny, michelle, ts, ivan and james. Underworld! too bad i didnt watch the 1st and 2nd one, so i kinda dont understand the ending, but the movie was quite nice. hahaha. went home first to take a t-shirt and bought a card, then met ts near my house there and headed to ivan's place.

and now here i am, feeling very bored and sian. ): hahaha. PLAY PATAPON! hahaha.

TS says : valvalval shit i forgot what i want to say already. shit. i like seaweed but i am not a sheep. i think no more already. i think val is very retarded. she keeps typing what i say.

Val says : TS is always saying me retarded, but he's worse than a retard.

HAHAHA.
program meeting tomorrow, don't be late, PSquad! :D

2009-02-14T03:31:00.002+08:00

first of all, happy valentine's day, everyone! :D may you spend your day with your loved ones (family, friends, lover, etc) and may today be a great, loving day for you!

just reached home around 2+ (almost 3). hahaha, it feels great to hang out late after all my submissions are over! lol. thanks for the ride home, nelson! :D

in the morning, went to the last session for my CDS, U-Theatre. was quite sad cos i really love this subject, and there's no higher theatre. so yeah. ): anyway i had a really great time doing this subject and so you all should try it out next sem. lol.

ate lunch with rach & j. thanks for accompanying! lol. after that i stayed at concourse for awhile to accompany bobo who was struggling with cmaths. then ivy & michelle came, so the 4 of us (plus spencer) went to somewhere near school to eat. i never eat, instead, i watched them eat. lol. then the two girls went lesson while spencer go work. i slacked at concourse for awhile, then headed to clubroom.

er not long after that we (me, ivy, michelle and ivan) just spend the time slacking around GET lab and concourse. ivy left earlier and ivan was like sleeping (lol) so i spent the time talking to michelle. after that headed to clubroom again, then after sometime me & michelle headed to Changi Airport t3 to eat popeye for dinner :D ivy never come ): lol. anyway ivan came, then later nelson joined us.

so we were really bored after dinner and we decided to play pool! HAHAHA. IVAN LOST TO ME =X anyway, my val's day dates are the 3 of them :x lololol. yeah after that nelson sent all of us home. thankyouverymuch!

hahaha okay i think that should be all. will update more about valentine's day later since i am lazy to upload the pictures now. i think should be meeting irving they all hahaha. xD nights people!

& i am not angry laaaa. @.@"

2009-02-13T16:33:00.005+08:00

pinjia, this is a really nice banner! hahaha :D

linxi! you better read this post and tag, okay? i especially dedicate this post to you and only for you. damn darren for making my eyes teary with his dedication in the class blog. arghhh!

you know, i dont really like saying mushy things and stuffs. but i really treat you as a great friend! i still remember week 0 you were like telling me you dont have an english name, and if cant say linxi just call you lx. then there was once you helped the whole class print notes and have not enough paper at home until kp have to deliver some a4 papers to your house! then i also remember our cmsk1 project about the skit. you and syaz were like damn funny can. hahaha. after that you asked me for job and i asked you if you want to work at escape, then you went for interview. that time nazhrul came to me and ask if you're ahbeng lol and i had to cover up for you! then after sometime we always go to work together, but then i quitted cos i was really busy. after that we havent really talked but i still treat you like a friend... hahaha. i remember how you used to tell me about your ex. xD

anyway!

i know i sound dramatic but you must really remember that the class wont be the same without you ): but you must also know that all of us will be here for you! if you need someone to talk to or if there's anything wrong in RP, feel free to talk to me on msn! call us out for outings too! :) i will really miss you man. and yeah i feel sad, ok. as in reallllyyy sad. ): ):

BUT! i am also happy for you cos you dont have to suffer from all the stress in TP anymore. must always move forward, kays? hope your appeal is successful. :D

LINXI JIA YOU!
lao shi mei you lai. hui jia~
HAHAHA.

2009-02-12T21:58:00.003+08:00

all projects down! WOOT. :D i feel so much better now. and now i'm left with U-T presentation (tomorrow), and cmaths2 and oopg exams. jia you val!

i apologise to my friends whom i haven't been so close to lately. i never meant to drift away :)

and woohooo c213 is like the best class ever. i think it's really cool that all of us actually help each other for projects and stuffs. no backstabbing, no anger here and there. best! :D

haha heard the song 'i'm the one who wants to be with you' during talentine today. i havent listen to that song for awhile! it reminds me of prefect investiture when i was in sec 3! hahaha. those days were really great. xD

anyway thanks & sorry to you!

also, thank you kangyan, kokpeng, and ivan. muahaha :D sorry for being temporarily emo the other day. i'm revived. HAHAHA.

i was so happy today cos my dtat turns out great! woots.

slept at 6.30 am and woke up around 8.30 am this morning. then i stayed home to do the dtat (redid the posters quite a few times). bathed and everything... i reached school around 1++? then i just realised i haven't made another 2 postcards. so was practically panicking but still managed to stay calm lol. finished doing my dtat around 4 pm, then quickly went opposite school to print. wah, $8 only! cheaper than i thought. hahaha. then walked back to school with dongbin since cc, rach, linxi and cliff still printing halfway. managed to submit on time! hahaha. XD and mmp1 sketchbook was also submitted. now i really feel so light i can fly~ lol.

after that i went to the talentine booth for awhile. err slacked there and took some pictures, then walked over to concourse for u-t group meeting. nic had something on so it was just me and kelvin. we were like... bored? haha.

after that went to clubroom, but decided i shouldnt stay long cos i need to do my powerpoint slides for tomorrow.

so thats all for today :D

now, to the powerpoint slides for presentation tomorrow.
i need to cut and dye my hair! lol.

2009-02-11T21:21:00.000+08:00

are you still out there? halooooooo? it's like waiting for a sms which never comes...

2009-02-11T16:18:00.001+08:00

camwhoring at the digifriendship booth. WAHAHAHA. :X

update somemore later. lols. DTAT!

ky is cute!~
(written by the person himself)
james: WTH!

2009-02-11T00:42:00.002+08:00

okay i thought of posting a song lyrics and ts asked me to post an emo song. o.o" so yeah i was looking through my old mp3 player and then i came across a very meaningful song sung by Usher. the title is Seperated. lol. i used to listen to this song alot when i broke up with eugene. x) but yeah i havent listened to this song since like forever.

and it feels like i'm dedicating it to someone else now.

anyway, here's the lyrics!
:D

credits to lyrics007.com :)

Usher - Separated

Oh no, no, no, no

If love was a bird
Then we wouldn't have wings
If love was a sky
We'd be blue
If love was a choir
You and I could never sing
Cause love isn't for me and you

If love was an Oscar
You and I could never win
Cause we can never act out our parts
If love is the Bible
Then we are lost in sin
Because its not in our hearts

So why don't you go your way
And I'll go mine
Live your life, and I'll live mine
Baby you'll do well, and I'll be fine
Cause we're better off, separated

If love was a fire
Then we have lost the spark
Love never felt so cold
If love was a light
Then we're lost in the dark
Left with no one to hold

If love was a sport
We're not on the same team
You and I are destined to lose
If love was an ocean
Then we are just a stream
Cause love isn't for me and you

So why don't you go your way
And I'll go mine
Live your life, and I'll live mine
Baby you'll do well, and I'll be fine
Cause we're better off, separated

Girl I know we had some good times
It's sad but now we gotta say goodbye
Girl you know I love you, I can't deny
I can't say we didn't try to make it work for you and I
I know it hurts so much but it's best for us
Somewhere along this windy road we lost the trust
So I'll walk away so you don't have to see me cry
It's killing me so, why don't you go

So why don't you go your way
And I'll go mine
Live your life, and I'll live mine
Baby you'll do well, and I'll be fine
Cause we're better off, separated

2009-02-10T22:49:00.003+08:00

things will be alright, cos there's always a rainbow after the rain. so try and be a little optimistic, alright? :)

i'm really tired today, didn't really have a good day but it wasn't a bad day either. argh, ides presentation ruined my mood but now i'm alright again! haha. thanks ts, sorry ah i keep complaining :X

anyway, my u-t group is doing a project, research on Elizabethan Theatre. and i was so shocked to find out that this style of theatre in the past does not use a female actress! they actually got a young boy to fill in for female roles. i was totally stunned. so cool can. :X i mean, it's really not easy to act as an opposite gender. lol.

zul really surprises me with his predictions, cos that was exactly how i felt. confused, don't know whether i should ask, or not to ask. argh! haha. thanks for accompanying me in the afternoon, zul, sarah and bobo! :D

to linxi, it'll really be weird not having you around! but i also don't want you to die slowly because of studies. so all the best to whatever school you're going! always know that i am here if you need anyone to talk to :D and we should find a part time job together again one day. lols. :)

to steph aka kim babo, you know if there's a will, there's a way. i'm sure you'll get accepted there, or else i will really burn the place for you. hahaha :X cheer up, yo! samgyupsal next week, shall we? LOLOL :X

to michelle, i know you're worried; everyone is. just try to relax and look at the bright side, okay? cheer up :) call me if there's anything.

to eugene ong, happy birthday! hope you're doing alright.

humans have strength and weaknesses, so don't feel bad about being weak. it's all about turning your weakness in to your strength, not about mourning over it.

roars, dtat here i come!
and when was the last time i danced?

2009-02-09T19:00:00.005+08:00

was just testing my macbook's photo booth thingy. HAHA. ok, to ides & dtat now. xD

edited: kim babo, there's always a rainbow after the rain. so... lets go korea see rain. (lol?) :X CHEER UP YO! saranghaeyoooooo :D (Sarang Mu Soon LOL)

2009-02-09T12:55:00.001+08:00

at school lobby now, trying to polish my mmp1 ppt slides. feel so bored. oh yeah, thanks ts for helping me with the scans!

heels are killing me, especially when i'm wearing them with a sprained ankle. zzz.

3 more heelydays. add oil, val!

haha and i think i know what to do for my dtat postcards :D

2009-02-08T23:40:00.005+08:00

happy birthday, dearest michella! may you last long with your lover and may we stay friends forever. i love you! haha. meet up when i get back to hometown and yeah don't miss me too much. dbsk love forever. LOL :D

i miss my old self.

today went for lunch with the programmers at the superdog @ ehub, then we went for a recce. final result is... i've gotten a sunburn. zzz? @@"

anyway after that headed to clubroom, where they were all playing poker. lol. i was djmax-ing all the way while ts was chiong-ing his domokun slides. HAHAHA. dined at ajisen. FINALLY! lols xD

i know i haven't posted pictures for awhile. hmm i'll upload the pics from my camera to my picasa when i have more pictures so that i don't waste my time. lols. anyway from my phone...

cute right? guess who drew it...

ivysaur! T-T

horhor! ts abuse cat :X

the cat very cute right? it was sleeping in this pose! lol.

the very cute cat and the very act cute giraffe. lols.

these were taken during open house. admin team rocks! :D

i love hyoyeon! :D

more pictures soon. i'm too lazy to upload :X
tomorrow must wear formal. lazyyyy T-T argh i hate skirts.

2009-02-07T21:12:00.002+08:00

thanks ziling for reminding me.

something funny happened during yesterday night's dinner at KFC. there were me, aty, zl, ts, ahsoon and kp. ziling was asking kp in chinese if he wants to help linxi buy food (... lin xi mai ma?) and ts heard wrongly, he heard as (lin xi nai ma?) and whole table burst out laughing. tsk, ziling ah, kp ah, dont do this in public please. lol :X

anyway kp, cheer up, okay? buy an iPhone. ;D

had program meeting today, it was alright. meeting ended around 6.30, then i waited for michelle, ivy and ts, then i took 15 with them and accompanied ts to mrt station. after that bought dinner and headed home.

i feel so tired although i have had enough sleep. hahaha. maybe this shows that i should sleep more. :X

mmp1 presentation slides undone, and dtat self promotional kit also.
come val, tell yourself you're not tired! T.T

btw, sorry ivy, can't go to your place. next time, kay? who asks you live so far T-T move to tampines laaa. lol. jia you!

it feels so hard for me cos at the start, i'm fighting a losing match and i have lost all my will to fight.

2009-02-07T00:45:00.004+08:00

finally IDES revamped site = DOWN! woot. i am now left with mmp1 presentation and dtat self promotional kit. haha jia you val!

i was so sleepy didnt know what i typed. lol. i think i better sleep soon again.
you made it as easy as 1234...
gnights people! program comm, dont forget meeting at 11 tomorrow~ try not to be late please :D

oh ya, thanks TS for helping me with my IDES! good luck in finishing your revamped site :D

2009-02-06T06:14:00.001+08:00

omg i still havent slept even a minute! and i am very extremely sleepy. zzzzzzz. i am halfway done with my IDES, and i dont feel like completing at all T-T

i want to sleep. zzz. ):

ate mac breakfast with they all just a moment ago. thanks ivy and ivan for the take-aways. :D

ok, back to forcing myself to not sleep again.

2009-02-05T22:56:00.002+08:00

i am so tired, i have lack of sleep, and yet i can't sleep! true enough, i don't feel panic at all even though i am hours away to submission for ides and i'm redoing the whole revamped site, and i forgot that i have no macromedia dreamweaver 8 in my laptop. but somehow i just feel really relaxed and i dont plan on feeling panic! wahahahaha.

ok i better start doing my website now so that i can get some sleep in the morning.

and who says i'll miss you? haha.

2009-02-04T19:21:00.002+08:00

i am currently in the iitsc clubroom, trying to finish up whatever thing i need for dtat sketchbook, but i am very tempted to slack LOL. listening to ryan cabrera's true. i suddenly miss this song alot. haha.

generally today is a good day for me, cos i skipped cmsk and oopg today :x i got MC though. haha. i think i need a better finance management. lol :X

ok i'm gonna try and get some rest before meeting now. byes.

kangyan, get well soon!

2009-02-04T01:42:00.001+08:00

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Tian Seng Hint hint, feed me some trojans :x says:
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2009-02-03T23:25:00.002+08:00

okay today i spent total of $12 on cab. -.-"

had class at 10 and i woke up at 9.20. so i was like O_O"!! by the time i left house, it was already 9.55... so no choice, i cabbed to school. zzz.

ides was boring cos i never do work :x not only lazy, but i was planning on sleeping only a few hours tonight so i plan to 'chiong' after i post this entry. ~~that is if no one asks me to play guess the sketch~~ oops, i must try not to break my promise. hahaha. :X

after lesson, headed to clubroom with kp. interviewed some people til 2+ then lunched at ITAS with kp again. ate chicken noodle... i think it tastes... erm yeah. LOL. back to clubroom, stayed til 6 then headed to tm to buy my formal top.

walked around cs and tm; me finding formal top while kp goes to every shops taking name cards. lol. :X then i was so irritated cos couldn't find anything i like, so i headed back to g2000 again. so ytd i saw a blouse, i like it but it costs $99. i decided "ah, heck care! expensive then expensive, lazy to find, so just buy!" then when i paid, i realised that the blouse is on offer, so it only costs $39. HAHAHA. lucky me :D:D:D:D

after that headed home. sister hasnt eaten so i went out to buy dinner for both of us. then after i reached back home, ate dinner, read manga for awhile, then sister told me she's not feeling well, so left home again to send her to clinic. then when i was about to pay, i realised my thumbdrive is left in clubroom. so i took a cab, dropped my sis home, then headed to school again... i reached there around 8+pm. zzz? slacked awhile with ivan, desmond, ahmad and sky, then after awhile irving, danny and yufei came. the three of them didnt stay for long, though. lol. then the 5 of us went for supper. saw the GET guys there. haha.

and guess what? I SAW A VERY CUTE DOGGY :D and a very fat cat. lol. :X

when the 5 of us were walking to the SAFRA bus stop, a black cat followed us. rather scary la. lol.

ok thats all for the day, time to chiong my ides now. lol. gnights!

i just don't want to be happy over someone else's sadness

2009-02-03T00:47:00.002+08:00

my 300th post! :D

i wanna say thanks to kangyan, tianseng, kokpeng and ivan! don't ask me why, just thanks! i think without the four of you i would have continued feeling emo. wahahaha :x

okay i really need to work on IDES. zzz! (and i just decided a moment ago that i'm redoing the whole bloody site. :X)

i am SO going to buy domain name! :D

2009-02-02T22:48:00.005+08:00

it feels like i'm back to where i started. it's unfair, i know, i don't feel good about it either. too much information to be absorbed within just few hours. i dont know what to feel right know cos if i'm allowed to say in a vulgar language, i'd say i feel so fucked up. argh, whatever. i don't want to care, i can't think about all this shit now since i need to do my assignments. i am so sick and tired of all these. always happening again and again, why me, out of so many girls out there who are better looking, nicer and kinder? or is it because i don't look good enough??! fuck it. it really sucks to feel this way. it hurts to know the truth, it hurts to have to fake a smile, it hurts to know that i can't stay sad because i cannot show it because i need to be strong for my friends' sake. someone, anyone, just put this world in to a freeze for a moment and let me let out my sadness which drives me insane. argh!

2009-02-02T11:41:00.003+08:00

i need to get back on track, have been quite relax in my studies. time to work harder, val! so i shall not visit facebook for a few days (but i still can't resist the temptation!) T.T

i need to finish IDES revamped site. i need to finish MMP1 presentation and the last ZOHO entry. i need to finish up DTAT sketchbook, logo, letterhead, and postcard or whatever design it is. i need to buck up! somehow i'm not sure my GPA can maintain =/ may be will drop, but i will do my best to improve again! xD

in school, trying to squeeze my brain juices to draw the very last scenario for my mmp1 presentation. for some reason i just cant seem to find the will to draw comics. ARGH! this isn't the way. but doing a half-hearted job won't do me any good as well. i am now in holiday mood, and it's not even holiday! ):

to my friends who just got their schools / courses, if you get what you wanted, i'm happy for you :) but if you don't, please don't be disappointed. i'm sure there's no bad course or schools in this world, so just try and go through with it, live with it! :D i'm sure something good will happen after something bad happened, so yeah. i dont even know what am i talking about but please know i'm always with all of you (maybe not physically)! smiles!

i know i havent been meeting some old friends for awhile now, but please understand that i live quite far from bishan now and i barely have free time to even spend with my school friends. i promise i'll make it up to you during holidays. :)

now, what should i do to kill time? i'm hungry! haha.

2009-02-01T15:26:00.002+08:00

another boring sunday. have to stay at home to finish up my assignments, but i haven't started. HAHA. felt like changing blogskin to something simple, so there. again, i took it from blogskins. too lazy to design one myself. =X

anyway, today i did this funny itunes quiz at facebook. it was quite fun but i was rather surprised with some of the answers. hahaha. stupid itunes playlist. :) (psst zul, dont misunderstand lah. hahaha)

i slept really well last night but my eyebags are still there. =\ sigh. and i still need to buy formal clothes! roarrrr i'm so lazy to get out of my house.

btw, thanks alvin! it's always nice talking to you :D hahaha.

i think the song fly away by corinne may really suits the situation from awhile ago. maybe my mom felt that way? idk. hahaha. but anyway it's a nice song and i have been in love with it for the longest time. xD

Fly Away by Corinne May.

"When will you be home?" she asks
As we watch the planes take off
We both know we have no clear answer to where my dreams may lead
She's watched me as i crawled and stumbled
As a child, she was my world
And now to let me go, I know she bleeds
and yet she says to me

"You can fly so high
Keep your gaze upon the sky
I'll be praying every step along the way
Even though it breaks my heart to know we'll be so far apart
I love you too much to make you stay
Baby fly away"

Autumn leaves fell into spring time and
Silver-painted hair
Daddy called one evening saying
"We need you. Please come back"
When I saw her laying in her bed
Fragile as a child
Pale just like an angel taking flight
I held her as I cried

You can fly so high
Keep your gaze upon the sky
I'll be praying every step along the way
Even though it breaks my heart to know we'll be so far apart
I love you too much to make you stay
Baby fly away
ohh...
I love you too much to make you stay
Baby fly away

2009-01-31T23:15:00.002+08:00

thanks to supermariobross, i am now addicted to the song I'm Yours by jason mraz. :D i havent been listening to english songs for awhile, but i do keep a lookout for nice songs. :x muahahaha.

btw, had meeting today and it lasts for whole day? lol. i feel so tired. @_@"

sorry for not following you all to ivan's place ): next time, kay? hahaha.

steph, don't feel down, ok? i am always here for you. :D COME TP. HAHAHAHA XD

i keep telling myself that it's alright and i can go through this, but may be i'm not as stong as i thought i was. i wish those words were not said cos it saddens me to hear them =.=" but anyway let's just let the matter pass. oh freak?

guess the sketch is soooo fun :X:X:X:X

2009-01-31T00:50:00.000+08:00

1234

argh

i
am
so
tired.

-_-

nights.

2009-01-30T01:40:00.002+08:00

things come and go, for me, they rarely stay.

anyway, today my classmates cheated my feelings because no one told me mmp1 was cancelled and i forgot that cherry thian is at india. -.-" so i rushed all the way down to school and reach there at 9 am just to find out my class actually starts at 12 since mmp1 was cancelled. ahhh there goes my $6. but it's alright. lol.

anyway dtat was really fun. peggy was really nice today! i think she was in a good mood. lol. :D

things to be done by next week:

- dtat namecard & letter head designs
- ides revamped site. SUBMISSION on friday. :D

i think i'm out of my freaking mind. and i think patrick lim is a starfish.

attended the oltc booth, then slacked at clubroom, then supper-ed at the usual with everyone. err i lazy to mention names. cabbed home with sky & mario.

i wanna go SHOPPING!!!! xD

andandandandandandandineedtocoolmybraindownlikeseriouslyhahahahashucks.

nights.

2009-01-28T22:53:00.002+08:00

happy chinese new year, everyone! :D may you receive loads of hongbaos and may everyone be blessed in this year of moo moo LOL :D

anyway, today i have no class. MUAHAHAHA :X e learning for cmsk and oopg, and cmaths2 tutorial was cancelled. but i went to school anyway since i wanted to attend to the iitsc oltc booth.

it's not really my day today cos i seem to be having a lot of things in my mind. but i'm definitely not emo and i'm sure tomorrow will be a better day. :D

okay i better get started with dtat namecard. HAHAHA. lazy :X

edited:
OMG WONBIN PLEASE DONT LEAVE FTI. AFKLHASDFHASJKFAS T_____T"

2009-01-25T21:52:00.003+08:00

val해 ; let me say uh-oh says:
he is sooo irritatingggg ><
[i][c=4]°º¤ø,¸¸° [' Icarusky - Tsubame `] °º¤ø,¸¸°[/c][/i] says:
chilllll
update ur blog!!
lol
val해 ; let me say uh-oh says:
LOL
wad do you want me to say in my blog
[i][c=4]°º¤ø,¸¸° [' Icarusky - Tsubame `] °º¤ø,¸¸°[/c][/i] says:
27things interesting and random about urself
lol
tat will kip you entertain
lol

ok above is the conversation between me and kangyan. so since i'm really BORED, i shall do what he suggested.

27 random things about me.
1) i hate pink.
2) i hate skirts.
3) i wanna try bungee jump and sky diving.
4) i hate insects, but i'm okay with lizards.
5) i am cute. HAHA =X
6) i think lee donghae is hotter than jesse mccartney.
7) i love theatre.
8) i am starting to dislike a game titled super mario.
9) people call me fish and mushroom. = mushfish?
10) i don't watch porn.
11) i don't go clubbing.
12) i don't smoke.
13) i wanna go Seoul University.
14) i'm never against gays or lesbians, they are nice people. but i'm straight.
15) i love kyoko hikawa's mangas.
16) i don't like to cry in front of people.
17) i don't like to show my weakness in front of others.
18) i'm a very nice person. HAHA again =X
19) i think cockroaches are cute although they are gross sometimes.
20) i think kangyan is a monkey.
21) and i'm surprised that ts likes someone by the name of... oh nevermind. :D
22) i wanted to be a fashion designer.
23) i don't find the need to dress nicely for others.
24) i find cats and hamsters cute, but dogs are better. :D
25) i love dbsk, sj, bb, snsd, wg, fti, shinee, and many other korean bands.
26) miyavi is the best.
27) the fact that i did this thing means i'm really bored.

happy cny, people!

2009-01-25T15:38:00.001+08:00

http://picasaweb.google.com/rain.n.tears

i am not lazy cos i have uploaded the pictures there. :D muahahaha.

anyway

today is chinese new year eve and yet i'm lazing around at home. was supposed to go to utz's house but the plan was cancelled so i'm stoning now. LOL. totally no life can. =.-

happy birthday ivan!

argh i am super bored.

okay byebye.

2009-01-22T11:47:00.000+08:00

it's always best to talk it out to your best friend, because she'd know what happens even without you telling her by words. i feel so much better and lighter now, after talking things out. xD

it's like choosing between the things i like doing most and the things i like most. it's so difficult! argh!

anyway i forgot to redo my namecards for dtat and lesson starts in... 7 minutes?

rest in peace val. LOL. :X

2009-01-21T16:15:00.001+08:00

okay i just finished oopg lab test and cmaths2 class test not too long ago. i have a feeling that i'll pass but i dont think i can get an A. argh! i really need to buck up cos i dont want my GPA to drop. :(

anyway, with both tests done, i feel a little less worried LOL. now i need to concentrate on my dtat and mmp1 and ides. zzz!

things to be done BY the weekend:

1) dtat logo scanned & done!
2) ides web revamped at least 50%!
3) zoho entry (last entry)
4) mmp1 sketchbook touch-ups
5) dtat sketchbook touch-ups

ARGH! so stressed up. okay scratch that. actually i'm not that stress, i'm just feeling very tired cos of lack of sleep. lol. xD

and i'm so gonna buy a new webcam! lololol :x

should i, or should i not?

2009-01-20T13:44:00.001+08:00

HAHAHA.
idk why i just find this picture hilarious. ~~may be because kangyan looks retarded in here and no, i hope he doesn't read my blog LOL~~ okay maybe because i look stunned in this picture. anyway thanks michelle for uploading the picture =x

i am so bored. IDES started at like, 10 am today and i woke up at 12.20. no i'm not a pig. =x

and i really need to make full use of my camera starting from like, erm, today? LOL.

okay the next post will be pictures. ~~and no i never promise~~